35th day..

this is wat i did everytime when i came bek home from work..

i wil first open comp..
go for restaurant city..
then check notification..
only go to bath..
and lastly have dinner(if i hv mood to eat)..

today is a normal day for me..
except tat the birthday boy shut my comp down for 2 times..
and vincent shut once..
my stupid comp hang once..

luckily i saved everything i did after entered one transaction..
if not i'm gonna have a hard time redo everything!

this is life in bank muamalat..
matching(vouching) the cheque wif bank in slip..
actuali, it's a very simple, yet time-consuming work..
nothing v can learned there..

luckily bank muamalat delayed our starting period for this job..
if not, v langsung cannot learn anything during our internship!
at least last month v learn quite a lot of things from various place la..

i opened facebook juz now..
and the first news appeared in front of me..
is a bad news..
someone got sicked..

i duno y, i'm damn worrying..
even now..
my mood juz fly away..

im fully aware..
if this happened last month..
i wil immediately take up my phone and starting to care bout u..
but now?
i don hv the permit..
thus i cant do anything!
nothing i could do to help u get well..
i felt useless..

i realised i keep giving myself hopes..
at the same time i'm reminding myself i have lost in this battle..
i'm contradicting myself!

i stil nid times to make decision..
guess i'm affected by my college gang..
lack efficiency in making decision..

ppl said IMU is International Medical University..
but my IMU is . .... ...

here's a song dedication..


A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It's for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own, how I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand!

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

END