No Man's Island..

Juz back from No Man's Island..
The term is created by songher..
indicated v cant precisely predict the time there..
time in No Man's Island is very abstract..
when u thought it's juz 5pm..
the actual time already 7++pm..

this time round..
again 3 days 2 nights..
in kah wai's hse..
those hu attend is decreasing..
last time v can make up to 3 rooms..
but this time round v only occupied 2 rooms..
wif 4 ppl sleep per night only..

but at last..
all ppl attend oso la..
me stayed the longest..

there..
v gamble most of the time..
last time only poker..
this time..
v played 3 games..
poker, blackjack and in between..
in between is a new game in our tradition la..

my first time playing this game oso..
quite fun to play de.
u get two card at first..
then get the third card..
third card must between the first two cards only u can get money..
if it's outside the range..
u have to pay money to pot in between..
if u hit the 'tiang', as in u get the same card of either the first 2 cards u get..
u have to pay double for the money u called..

ehy..
don play play ar..
i once get 2 and K ok!
and it's lik confirm win jor de lo..
but then i don wan to b obsessed wif my greediness..
so i called 5 bucks..
and wth?! i got 2?!?!
realy kenot greddy le..
imagine if i greedy tat time?
i wil have contribute more into the pot and pk lik songher lo..

and of course..
first time play poker wif them oso la..
last time i don wan played..
but then after i played in facebook..
i don think it's hard anyway..
so this time i joined them..
twice..
i confirm win le..
double pair.
at last oso lose..
haih~~

instead, this time v seldom sing k le..
altho the sing k devices is juz in front of us..
the only time v sing is sat nite after 11.59pm..
when everyone leave..
and tat's only shu pin sing i think..

oh yeah..
sat noon..
when everyone is in karaoke room..
EVERYONE!
include those who din play..
when dealer is giving out the cards..
i take the opportunity to 'observe' songher..

of course i'm not gay!
but then i saw some interesting part..
in 30 seconds..
tat 30 seconds only la!
he changed his attention to someone 4 times!
i catch tat moment..
damn funny..
i wonder wat songher said bout "2 is better than 1" is true ar?
kesian his gf weyh~

wat else huh?
ermmmm...
first nite v went to paparich to have supper+dinner..
i forgot wat's the name of the drink i ordered le..
but it's nice..
it's D22..
try find out whether it's same or not la..
undoubtly, the foods and drinks there is expensive, but stil affordable la..

oh yea..
kahwai pointed out some 'lenglui' while v were attending his father's company event..
there is this girl..
he said quite pretty de la..
wearing all white..
but then i don feel tat she is pretty le..

if not because kahwai showed her picture in facebook before v met her..
i realli don think she is pretty de lo..
however, her pic in facebook quite pretty de lo.
y so big diff de ar?
haih..

other seems interested wif the girl..
but then i no interest le..
izit my heart stil occupied or i really don think she's pretty?
which one?
haih~

but then when i sit there there alone observing her..
of course i stil don think she is pretty..
but i do have one thought..
girl hu wear all-white could b very nice..
very comfortable to see..
no other intention than tat!
those guy, dont think yang bukan bukan!

erm..
i think tat's all le..
i oso tired le..
later stil need go college collect my booktat i borrowed..

conclusion..
this two days shud b ok ba..
less out the time alone..
when i faced ppl..
i's stil able to maintain my happy mood..
tat's gd sign anyway..
hope the prob can leave me soon..
as i said, time heals..

31st day le..
it's a one full month..
one month i stil cant get used..
wat could i do then?
work is the only way?? haih~

ps. nvm, wat i hope now is u could live happily forever even with or without me..

KahWai House Party..

ok.. now i'm in kahwai hse..
writing this post..

there is a lot of ppl now..
quite meriah la his hse..
got party ma..
every kind of ppl oso got..

the children..
especially very naughty..
chasding each other inside the house..
if this ever happen in my house..
sure my mum wil scream de..

how to say leh?
here got one xiao mei mei open facebook..
open all the funny stuff for me to laugh..
felt a bit happier la..
abuden u wan me to b moodless facing the innocent child meh?
rite?

she keep on opening new video for me to laugh altho i keep telling her i wan to open restaurant city..
at last..
i did laugh..
thx to songher's xiao qing..

beside, songher and disheng back d..
and here comes yeehoo and shupin..
y cant v ghather together leh?
haih..

nvm la..
gonna watch football later le..
see yea..

ps. but now tat u act cruel.. i have nothing else to say but to act as wat u wished for..

22 hours of fast..

It's incredible..
i can fast for 22 hours!!
unfortunately i cannot put myself longer..
24 hours kan bagus?
it makes up to one full day..

as i said before, my last meal is yest at 1pm..
til today 11am only i took my breakfast..
isnt it 22 hours?

in these 22 hours..
i learnt to not eat..
altho my stomach is screaming..

i look at it as my punishment..

so?
today is holiday..
maulidur rasul..
so i no nid work..
but my senior have to..
they are subjected to their work and therefore could not make themselves free..
kesiannya, this is life of an auditor..
sacrification is indeed a MUST!

another week gone le..
time passed very fast..

this week, my luck is not there..
my will is not there..
n my spirit is not there..

wat consumed me is sadness, emoness, frustration!
mainly because i do not noe ppl's thinking well..

i learnt tat during these period..
true face of ppl wil revealed..
i can easily noe hu is sincerely caring for me..

altho my fren cant do anything wif my condition now..
yet, they tried their best to make me happy..
thx Bell, Annie, Angel, Swee, JiaMin and hu ever la..

one guy even asked me to do the things i like to forget the sadness..
but then, he dont noe, wat caused me this..
i don blamed him..
now i tell him here..
i'm FORCED not to do things tat i liked..
so wat other suggestion can u giv huh?

aiks~
"time heals"..
i keep repeating this sentence to me..
hoping i could jump out from this situation..
anyway, it's juz an obstacle in life..
everyone faced different obstacles in life..

my obstacle is in front of me..
it takes time to overcome the problems..
so no worries my fren..
i wil b fine one day in the future..

on 29th day..
i did nothing but rot at home..
gonna depart to songher's, swee's and kahwai's hse later..

ok..
another song dedication..
the rhythm synchronised wif my feeling..

下雨天 - 南拳妈妈

下雨天了怎么办
我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

END

ps. before tat, i thought: i wil continue to wait, cont to go after you.

28th day..

U noe y i now only write blog?
at 11.21pm now?

because i OT today..
i chose to OT..
my senior keep on asking me to go bek..
they say VT(interns) shud not work beyond 8pm..
i, wif a smile, asked her bek: which law actually say so de?
she replied: it's a hidden rule..

i OT because:
first, i haven finished the task given by senior, altho it's only 65 samples..
but my senior din asked me to finish it all by today, i willingly to stay back..
second, my last day in ASTRO le..
next week i wil move to Bank Muamalat..
feel so tak sampai hati to leave ASTRO..
so mai stayed longer lo..
third, is because i can temporary forget the unecessary thinking when i staye in the office, despite the noise created by cleaner's vacumm..
by juz looking at the invoices, searching for document number, date, does the client sign? when sales manager sign? when finance manager sign? does the rate consistent? and so on..
i can forget the unhappy stuff..
moreover, the time passed fast enuf for me..
one glimpse of eye and half an hour passed..
this is wat i wan currently..

tat's y i OT til 10pm only went bek home from ASTRO..
and first thing i came up from ASTRO..
it's a bad news..
i thought my father can drived in and picked me up..
but then the gate is closed..
so i have to walk far far to come out to petrol station only my father can fetch me..
realy not my day..

well, wat can i say more?
i'm half dead..
these little things wil cause no better for me..
i'm oredi in worst situation, wat can bring further harm to me?

but today quite lucky..
i worked in radio group ma..
and then slightly after 8pm i went out from the radio group office to finance office..
and guess hu i saw?
i saw the MY FM's DJ - the one juz finished duty - Royce and his partner(wan wai fan).
they even opened the door for me.
shud i feel honoured ar?

so here i am..
after bathing and writing this post here..
now wat time le?
11.32pm..
to b honest, i stil haven took my dinner..
lunch at 1pm..
10 hours passed le..
surprisingly my stomach is juz mere hungry..
not very very hungry..
so?
don wan take dinner ba..
later wan sleep le..
if not wil become one pig only..

yest nite i whole nite listened to 心太软..
this song reali very nice..
the lyric is meaningful too..
even my heart listened to this song wif 100% concentration..

the lyric represented my heart..
the song represented my body..
when it merged, it makes perfect..


today i listened to music la while working..
and i accidentally listened to another of my favourite song..
then i juz clicked 'repeat' and the song stayed there til i went bek..
this song, is a rock song..
but i duno y..
when i listened to it, i wil feel sad..
i lik the song's rhythm..

hereby dedicate this song to myself..

BaD RomancE -LadY GagA

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want you leathe-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
Your bad romance

I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love, uhh

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
(‘Cause I’m a freak bitch, baby!)
I want it bad
Your bad romance

I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
I’m a freak bitch baby

I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

J'veux ton amour
Et je veux ton revenge
J'veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
(Want your bad romance)
Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)

I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

END


28th day le..
ppl usually say yi fat yi fat(easy fatt)..
when is my turn to fatt?
haih..

ps. with the will i have now, i learn to never give up..

27th day..

yest nite i was talking to myself..
i rmb one terms ni - 心太软..
and this morning, i heard it in radio..
izit a coincidence?

Nothing much to say today..
dull day..
doom day..
gloominess day..

time to get up mr miow!

bek home i did nothing..
NOTHING!

on 26th day, everything changed..
on 27th day, everything changed too..

i dedicate this song to mr miow, hoping he get up soon..


心太软 - 任贤齐

你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强


夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人
喔,算了吧
就这样忘了吧该放就放
再想也没有用
傻傻等待他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来
你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强


夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人
喔,算了吧
就这样忘了吧该放就放
再想也没有用
傻傻等待他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来
你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强
不是你的就别再勉强
不是你的就别再勉强
不是你的就别再勉强


ps. therefore i stand up again, facing myself wif lights, a light of hopes..

I cant juz understand..

today was suppose to b a happy day..
SUPPOSE to b!!
but b4 the day ends..
something tat I DON REALI WAN TO C, I DON REALI WAN TO SEE!!
pierce thru my eye into my brain..
n my stupid brain actually got the msg..

everything was ok til juz now..
everything in ASTRO was good for me..
at least i feel so!

beside, whole day i was actuali thinking of how to make u happy..
WHOLE DAY u noe?
the feeling is not very good..
when u juz wanted to focus on something else..
the mind juz cant concentrate..
or shud i say i concentrate, but the thought juz make it way to my brain..

and wat happen next?
i was juz happily(for god sake i was happy juz now) going off from office..
thinking tat now is off time le..
and i can START SMS!!

wat's next?
no reply..
and i juz saw the god damn message..

is the world trying to make fun of me?
or m i stupid enuf to be tricked?
wat's up now?
better to let ppl destroyed my heart now..
than keep on suffering lik this..

ps. BUT i tell myself, "now kenot doesnt mean future kenot"..

25th day..

these 2 days..
got happy got sad la..
mostly bout happy one..

yest nite went to wangsa to pass library book to one of my fren..
it's oredi overdue for lik 2 weeks?
n i dont get a gd time to go bek to college to return the book due to my work during weekdays..
then had dinner there wif them..
kesian me i nv got a chance to meet my mei¬
T.T

then opportunity cost?
i forgone the chance to meet up wif secondary skul juniors..
one of my fren invited me to his hse but as i nid to go wangsa and pass the book..
i missed the chance..
when is the next time then?
unknown...
@.@

so wat's so special bout today?
back to normal working days la..
it's been usual since i started working..
everyday juz hope tat the time passed faster and i can go bek faster..
and so i could open my restaurant city more..
and increase my $$ and gourmet point..
lol..

getting more closer to senior liao..
and tat means?
works coming in more frequent..
today i worked wif 2 senior inside the radio group's office..
and they indirectly rebut me to do works for them..
nvm la.
as long as i got works to do..
i wil forget those unhappy things trapped inside my mind de..
hehe..

so wat i did today?
i was assigned to radio groups - AMP(Airtime Management Programming..
a company tat managed the astro's radio station..
to put it simple..
a company tat in charge of MY FM..
done lead cash schedule for invoice.
doing lead schedule for PPE..

and i can sense more works incoming tomorrow..
at least it's better than no works to do rite?
^^

the lady hu sit opposite me..
is a receptionist in the office i think.
she keep on getting up phone calles and say 'yes, AMP, come again, one moment please..'
repeating the lines for at least 100 times today..
and tat's wat she said the whole day..
=.=''

oh yea¬
i saw phoebe and my fm's ah bee today in canteen..
seperately..
kesian i din c ah lian tym..
but i can tell u..
he's getting thinner and taller le..
last time i c him oso not tat 'fit' de lo..
haha..

yeah..
25th day le..
i oso duno y i keep on remind myself..

ps. tat moment is speechless, undescribable, sadness, emoness to the max..

Siew Thong's hse gathering & Steamboat..

Yest nite i thought i was going to live my life alone..
but then..
i was wrong!
instead, i enjoyed yest nite..

it's juz a normal gathering la..
but then i felt a great satisfaction.
mayb it is caused by few factors ba..
one is i seldom see primary skul fren..
and beside, primary skul teacher oso there..
and many others la..

so yest nite, i went to siew thong's hse for gathering..
shortly after, v went to sri petaling to have our dinner..
our dinner is at HoHo Steamboat restaurant..
kinda got some popularity de la..

primary skul class teacher, mdm chen was there too..
those hu present, girls outnumbered guys.
very little guy only la..
but among them, yoon ming is the rare one..
then got me, kam hin, chen hoong and bryan..
girls got usual one: wan teng, wai fong, chiam rong, yu hui, stephanie, siew thong, en le..
rare spesies: pui san, siau peng..

the feeling is great..
some of us changed a lot..
most of them is going to overseas within this yr le..
so the ppl hu can attend the gathering wil b lesser liao..
haih~

even mdm chen oso said: "ppl hu attend gathering is getting lesser oredi yea~(wif a melancholic voice)(everyone's nodding their head)"..
when can v actuali gather everyone out leh?
even the non-overseas ppl oso don wan come out gather wif us..
where's their spirit?

anyway, thx those ppl hu attended to make my day brighter..
hope to have more gathering in the future..
and hope our frenship bond wil last forever..

looking forward for the next gathering..
^^

24th day of get used period..
when shall it end?

ps. before u went away, u cut down my hope on you, hoping tat i could let go of u..

23rd day..

today is sat..
time for me to relax..
after 3 days of work..
but then relax can relax la..
i found it kinda boring le..
duno wat to do..
damn sien..
@.@

i woke up at 11am today..
and after i took my breakfast..
i did nothing le..
u c..
this is life..
u can either choose to work lik shit..
or relax lik shit..
haha..

i play poker game in fb..
first time win so many in one round..
i play smal smal oni la..
but then this time really lucky le..
i all in til last round..
aiming for flush in the last card..
and this guy..
all in wif me..
tat time v all in is lik 17k la..
last card is love ace..
and i win..
lol..

nothing else to do, i read novel..
read jin yong's novel..
third book d.
gonna finish soon..

so fast 3pm le..
i pun open fb..
play restaurant city..
visit usual few restaurant la.
swee's, bell's..
since i nothing to do, i visit other ppl's restaurant to find ingredient i wan..
at last..
in peikit's restaurant..
i found!
she crazy de lo..
her strawberry have 26 stocks..
n if i'm not wrong..
i saw one 30..
lol..

after tat, for the first time..
i decorated my own restaurant..
i try to make everything white and ice and snow..
so when u visit my restaurant, u wil find it kinda white-ish..
haha..

juz now called biiang, planned to play badminton later as i've been missing for a long long time..
but then he's not going..
so i'm stil finding activities to do later..

my mum wan to bring me to someone's open house later..
he is a dato' wif a big big mansion..
but as usual, i rejected..
with the reason:
there is no any other age mate of mine over there..
go there boleh makan la..
but then after tat wat u wanna do?
rot there?
or seeing the children play here n there chasing one another?
very sien de lo..
=.=''

so now i duno how to used my nite time..
there's a gathering waiting for me..
but it's subjected to me getting transport to b there..
if not, i really have to finish my nite time alone le..
gu ku ling ding.. T.T

i lik 23 very much..
cauz i born at this day..

ps. yet, ur decision still remained unchg, the end result is stil not wat i wan, i respect ur decision then..

Alex's open house..

it's a usual fri..
but wat started off my day?
a very emotional morning..

i realli just cant help myself in bringing myself up..
without someone's indirect help..
i'm juz another useless piece of shit without the usual activity which i do everyday..
@.@

the day start from me staring at comp for 1 hour..
stil ntg else yet to do..
and i was lik typing nonsense into word document..

today so far so good la.
at least onew thing finished liao another thing will come..
so after lunch, i was quite occupied wif works la..
i did lead schedule, summarise a long long table and doing vouching i think..
picking up an items which cost more than 20k and related it back to another place which v called aging account..

lastly i was rushing home for alex's open house..
but i missed shengko's outing..
he asked me skipped my work last min when i do not apply leave b4 tat..
sorry dude..
was thinking of gambling wif u all but it seems no chance at all..

my moodless day end at alex's hse when she resume sms me..
good sign ehy?
hope so la..

i was late to alex hse..
around 7++ when most of the ppl's oredi left..
so i missed the chance to see all my high skul fren again..

but then i gamble small small la..
win a bit lo.
then they play poker..
i juz watched ni..
nicholas always have his mind full of nonsense la..
once when someone lose..
he juz said: "tat's the miracle of poker, u cant afford then please leave" wif the face looking at u, half smiling half staring..
this makes alex spit water out from mouth weyh..

twenty second day le..
dua puluh dua hari..
genap tiga minggu..
tetapi saya masih tak guna, tak dapat lupa apa yang saya sudah buat.
macam mana ni?

ps. u have oredi make the decision, and i've tried my best to chg ur decision..

Tasteless day..

At last..
today start to rain heavily le..
the water is not warm anymore..
it's cold!!
juz had a nice bath after coming bek from work..

yest nite kahwai came find me..
cauz he wanted to pass key to yilee and asking me for direction to her hse..
so i b his gps..
but thi gps noob dao~
bring him to yi wei's hse pulak..
LOL..

planned to go yum cha after dropped down the key de..
but then yilee's mum ask us get angpao from her mum and her bro ask us gamble..
v pun masuk je la..
then play play awhile..
i'm oredi not concentrating le..
haih~

later yi lee's dad brought us to old town to have supper..
2 cars..
me and xin wei as gps, brought kahwai to cemetary pulak..
qiu shen bai fo~
sorry ar~ plz don come and find me ar~ find the driver k~

at last v successfully reached old town..
and v stayed there for half an hour ni la..
wif yi lee's dad, yilee, xin wei, and their cousin..
v ordered a drink and chat awhile and tat's all i think..
yi lee's flying back to aussie next tues lo..

today me at ASTRO reali hv a tasteless day le..
no feel at all..
at first when i reached there..
i type out the minutes..
all alone there..
as in no frens frens around la..
at first my progress is damn slow..
50% of normal rate..
slowly i put down my mind away only i can concentrate..
@.@

later on hv lunch, nothing else to eat, duno wat to eat le..
simply eat ni la..
then basically i juz photostat things and print things out..
for the last 1 hour i was sitting there facing comp DOING NOTHING!!
i'm reali done for it..
i reali beh tahan d..
seeing ppl around n none can delegate job for me..
and remember, no newspaper as well!!
wat is this?
wasting my time?
=.=''

today is a moodless day..
my day is normal..
and my mind is normal..
and my mood is normal..
@.@

21st..
2 more days to 23..

ps. i'm stil the cowards, i'm trying to avoid the truth, but it cant b changed..

End of CNY holiday..

While everyone is enjoying their CNY..
i started to work le..

first time bek to PwC tower after starting work at client's place.
i told ya tat i don lik the feeling of 'nothing-else-to-do' rite?
and today i'm facing tat kind of feeling most of the time..
as it's only the fourth day of CNY..
therefore, most of the chinese is taking another day off from work..
public holidays ends today..
everyone started to work..
most of the ppl hu work stands malays..

vincent told me PwC's GTS(computer department) no capital to buy genuine 07's office..
but i successfully updated my comp's office into 07 version..
vincent vincent...
ur senior lie-ing to u la!!! xD

ok.. after being assigned to work on something..
which really quite simple and quick..
i've nothing else to do..

so most of the day v r day dreaming there..
summor v sit at level 11..
which is the place of all partners and senior manager..
felt a bit tension ehy?
luckily i can survive til now le..

today lunch make me almost broke again.. T.T
one nasi + one curry chicken + one taufu + half salt egg + 2 keropok..
cost me 6.50 leh!!
too bad la..
i'm poor ppl..
tat's y i count every single cents out from my pockets..
xD

went to Maybank trying to open account again..
kena rejected again!!
holy shyte!!
not my fault oso..
is the Jabatan Pendaftaran de fault leh..
duno y the chips cant scan my fingerprints..
T.T

this means?
my salary collection might have some problem u noe?
imagine they cant bank in to my acc..
n no other bank's can b use..
so?
arghhhhhhh!!! T.T

20th day..
marks one fifth of 100 hundred days..

ps. in the end, my mind stil beng kui on tat moment..

HOT CNY!!

It's been few days ago since i felt the heat of CNY..
I thought it's normal..
until i realised it's freaking damn hot weyh..

since new year eve, i've been sleeping in a hot room..
i thought 1 day would passed..
but the weather doesnt seems to chg at all!!

then i heard news said..
marks the highest 36.7 degree celcius!!
it's no jokes!!
tiga puluh enam pepuluhan tujuh..
三十六点七..
thirty six point seven..
HOLY SHYTE!!

previously i bath 2 times a day..
now it seems tat i would sweat even when i juz came out from the bathroom..
now wake up once..
before going out once.
back once..
before sleep once..

even when i go my fren's hse which is full of aircond..
yet, i kenot escape the HEAT!!

the weather..
is damn freaking hot le..
i beh tahan d la!!!!

hu can save me? T.T

ps. well, action speaks louder than word, i noe how to talk, but i duno how to act!

Zunzen's Open hse,,

da nian chu er~
as usual..
my first two day of CNY wil b damn bored..
nonetheless it's the same this yr too!!

coincidently..
zunzen is having her open hse today..
it's weird for having ppl to organise their open hse on da nian chu er..
but nvm mind..
since i free..
i go lo..
^^

she said 1pm lik tat start wor..
when i reached her hse..
i feel kinda weird as i don c the signs of any party..
not even noise..

later when i go inside..
i noticed i'm the first ppl..
lol..

never mind..
basically i went to her hse juz to watch Transformer 2:Rise of the Fallen..
the ppl hu r invited is basically few of her fren ni..
n her sis's fren..

before i went off at 6pm..
the ppl hu attend is not more than 10 oni..
lol..

actuali i went to her hse juz for one purpose..
however, tat purpose did not fulfill..
nvm la..
go there chit chat awhile wif long lost zunzen oso good de..
hmmm...

today i c quite a lot of stuff la..
from the time i start taking bus to zunzen hse til now..
then i was lik erm..
speechless..
duno la..
speechless..
aiks~

i nid 1 ppl to talk to..
but hu can b my listener in this period?
where everyone is busy celebrating CNY?
@.@

nvm..
time heals..
^^

now cny le..
must b happy..
hehe..

18th day le..
chinese ppl say "sat fatt"..
but to me?
duno le~

currently listen to 新不了情~

ps. BUT i told myself i kenot stay lik this, i must b tough..

Happy CNY & Happy Valentine!

ok.. today is double the joy..
cauz it's a high rarity for the mixture of chinese's new year and western's valentine..
all in the same day..
today..
14th February 2010!!

according to radio, i heard in 21 century..
this thing will happen 4 times..
which is in year 2010, 2048, 2067 & 2086..
whether i wil hav the luck to live til 96 yrs old to witness all the 4 'double prosperity'..
it all depends..

previously..
i celebrate these two events..
but i don enjoy the meaning of it..
i mean i enjoyed the happenings of the events..
but not wholly la..
duno how to describe it in more details..
arghhh!!!
mayb i can put it this way..
i celebrate the event JUST because it's CNY & Valentine.

cauz CNY i juz return to hometown lik 6 hrs? n then bek KL le..
where got time spend wif cousins?
Valentine??
don even talk bout it..
i noe it's the day of the couples doing great things for their 'other half'..
since i don hv one..
i'm juz 'celebrate' it alone..

how to 'celebrate' it?
very easy..
in secondary skul..
participate in the society's stuff lo..
kooperasi will organised event on valentine's day de ma..
lik send flower, choco, bears or wat-so-eva on behalf of the ppl hu order to their loves one..
participate in the event i think can b counted as celebrate rite?
haih~

ok..
here's a question..
CNY hv to spend time wif family..
Valentine hav to spend time wif the beloved one..
so when 2 happened together..
wil u 2 in 1?
or 2 choose 1?
mayb 1 then 2 or 2 then 1?

i nv hav a gf before le..
so i duno how to ans my own question..
so far..
as to wat i can recalled..
oni form 5(2007) i prepared a valentine present b4 tio SYV..
n this yr, a very normal choco to someone special to me, QKY..
other than tat?
lik wat i said, celebrate ownself la..

next yr leh?
wait first la..
c how first la..
v r auditor now, i cant giv absolute assurance..
@.@

seeing couples by couples together..
especially when they post the pic nowadays..
really have the urge..
but it's useless if oni i think bout tat..
relationship this things is 两情相悦 de la..

now bored at home le..
nothing else to do..
later bek kajang pulak..
juz to release my thoughts over here since i hv nothing else to do..
so those regular visitor of mine..
i don think they wil c this la..
which is a gd thing oso..
haha..

lastly..
again..
wishing everyone..
a very prosperous year ahead..
and hope everyone wil goes well as usual..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
HAPPY VALENTINE!!

ps. i don reali put down my hope on u since tat day..

12345..

Today is new yr eve..
supposingly everyone is starting to relax now..
but then me?
diff case le..

early in the morning..
woke up by my mum to 'bai shen'(pray god)..
then together whole family went out to have breakfast..
surpringly a lot of stalls closed le..
i thought they start holiday tml tym..
lol..

after breakfast..
help mum wash this n tat..
and i juz finished taking out the shell of 'bai guo'..
duno how to translate tat food le..
but one thing i noe is:
it's damn freaking time-consuming!!
and after i finished tat, my shoulder felt pain..
@.@

now is 3pm le..
another 1 hr i wil b bek to hometown - seremban le..
hope everything will b fine to me la..

oso..
today is my mei~ de birthday lo..
hereby wish her HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Leong Jing Ting..
~^^~

wished everyone a very gd New Year Eve le..
^^

oh ya.. yest i visit my own blog.
n i'm the 12345th visitor.. xD



ps. i hope u gimme another chance, but wil it b possible?

15th day after incident..
10th day of PwC..
9th day of work..
6th day in ASTRO..

Today is fri..
PwC's policy said gentleman can no nid wear tie on fri..

Today i finished the minutes in 3 hours..
6 pages minutes..
3 hours to finshed..
end result: 7 pages in word form..
m i fast?
@.@

today kinda not so stress la..
cauz u noe la..
today is chinese new year's eve's eve ma..
many ppl balik liao la..
so leftover ppl all is nice to talk to de..
very frenly de..

when i thought it's the last minutes i have to type rite..
i was so relief when i finished it..
at the same time i felt awesome!!!
BUT!!
tat's not the end..

after lunch..
and after some silly small small stuffs..
suddenly..
another senior asked me to drop down minutes again..
2 more companies..

oh no~
y??!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?
unwillingly went to 3rd floor again and start my work again..
grrr...

but come to think of tat..
it's better tat u hv works to do than don hv at all..

b4 the second time i typed the minutes out..
i kinda have nothing to do..
even the highest ranking senior asked everyone,
if there are any works to delegate to me..
they said no..

and me?
u think it's nice eh?
watching everyone doing works lik SHIT..
n u sit there goyang kaki..
summor kenot R E A D N E W S P A P E R!!!
SO I ACTED DUMB AGAIN LOOKING EVERYWHERE THX TO THE Vxxxxxx..

and yeah..
time passed very fast..
tat's the summary of whole day..

ps. now i tell u, i stil kenot let go..

14th day..

14th Day
Rmb yest i was talking bout me, sitting in front of the comp, for half of the days, typing out words into comp rite??

today..
my job is nonetheless the same as yest..
juz tat it changed from half day to whole day!!

gosh!
typing minutes into comp..
the minutes is a paper which is printed out from the comp..
wat is this man?

y dont they juz gimme soft copy??
it wil make me more convenient u noe?
copy and paste..
as simple as tat..
now wat era?
tech era la!

typing minutes into comp is not a prob..
the prob is there is hell lots of thousands of hundred thousands of papers!

a minutes..
2 pages..
spend almost half an hour..

u have to type..
re-check..
and amend something..

facing comp whole day..

it makes me wonder whether this is realy audit work or not?
Lol..

tomorrow..
i had foresee my works..
a stack of paper..
around 10 pages..
each page full of words!!
tml i'm going to type it out..

fixed variable: word count..
manipulative variable: my mood..
responding variable: time taken to finish it..
@.@

ps. i guess u duno..

Read newspaper ==> forbid!!

Ok..
Today is my 4th day in ASTRO, 13th day after the incident..
i kinda have a habit to count days le..
hmm..

today as usual i went to ASTRO for 'work'..
did i says bout warning i got while working?

i think i din mentioned it..
yet, i'm lazy to check bek whether i've done it or not now.
so let's story-telling bout it a bit la..
(sorry if i mentioned it b4..)

u c..
as an intern..
u don get job unless ur senior asked u to do so..
while i'm in MSWG..
it's lik 2 seniors there..
no work?
v read newspaper..
until he delegated some job for us la..

BUT when u r in ASTRO audit team..
U R NOT ALLOWED TO READ NEWSPAPER!!
i wonder if it's my fault for making tis happen or it's mmg tak boleh baca surat khabar..

as i stated above, interns don do work unless u r asked to do so la..
so few days ago..
engagement leader was here for the kick-off meeting..
forget bout kick off, it's a M_E_E_T_I_N_G..
ok?

and the team leaders was busy layan-ing the engagement leader.
engagement leader is kinda lik head of the audit team la..
the one hu is in charge of the member and the progress is team leader..

i'm suppose to get job from team leaders.
but then, they were so busy u noe?!

i asked him wat shud i do..
n he said wait for awhile..
ok i waited..
i don feel lik chasing..
because chasing ppl for a thing is quite rude la..
so i sit-ted there..
10 mins passed..
he has no sign of passing me new task..
n he went off wif engagement leader.
i think yum cha something la..

so wat i did was reading newspaper..
no harm making gd use of our time on something knowledgeable rite..

and when the engagement leader was back..
she juz simply said "oh, u r reading newspaper.."
and she juz headed off to her seat together wif team leaders and cont their discussion la..

then bla bla bla..
engagement leader went home..
n time passed..
suddenly team leaders..
(this team leader's name has the same name wif my class rep..)
looked at me.. n said..
"ok.. this is ur warning.. next time no newspaper.. yest i caught u playing games(i was juz playing the mines while waiting for works oso!!) n juz now u read newspaper.. yest is ur 1st warning.. now is ur 2nd warning.. i don wan the 3rd one ok?"
"yea yea"
i was lik wtF??
read newspaper oso wrong?
holy shyte!!

so today.. i very guai~
obedient de guai, not weird de guai..
lol..

it's lik, un-understandable decision..
un-logical..
un-rational..

today same thing..
i was once nothing else to do..
n i hv a newspaper in my bag..
i juz pretend to b dumb..
n look around..
swt..
=.=''

****************************************

today i did new jobs la..
cross checking..
u noe when u prepare financial statements, u prepare this yr de FS n show last yr de FS rite?
so this yr u prepare u show 2010 & 2009..
last yr de showed 2009 & 2008..
my job is to compare the 2 2009 figures whether it's the same or not..
cauz it shud b the same!!!

and next one is a tiring job..
i did it from 3pm til 6 sth..
n yet i haven done..
typing company's minutes into laptop..

i tell u..
i juz typed the resolutions out into the laptop..
3 resolution, each wif 2 - 3 pages..
spend me 3 hrs!!!
don think it's easy huh?
first u nid to type la..
then adjust the bullet and numbering..
then double check it again whether it's correct or not..
NO ERROR SHUD B ALLOWED!!

tml gona cont the job again..
it's making me backache u noe?? @.@

facing the comp sooooo long time reali can make u go crazy..
i wonder y nowadays de kids stil wan to like comp so much..
some of them even BEGGED their mum to let them use comp more..
when they go to work, oni they wil noe, facing comp more is no longer a preferable options..
haih~

ps. do you know wat i feels now?

Statutory Audit..

oh yeah..
today i got to start a new work d..
after few days of tying out the figures..

don think it's an easy job ok..
i knew..
when i say u juz nid to compare figures between 2 things..
u wil sure looking down at me and says:
"cheh, so easy.. i 10 mins oso can finish la~~"
u think so eh?
WRONG!!!
totally undeniable absolutely WrOnG!
by doing oni 1 subsidiary already can took me 1 hr..
wat's more?
9 companies in 2 days..
=.=''

and tat is wat v call audit..
it's a life of audit..
those hu wan do audit..
prepare to face ur toughest moment every beginning of month ba..
^^

today..
astro audit team officially kick off the meeting..
from now on til the future 2 or 3 months..
everyone will contribute their parts to i A-U-D-I-T..

now i understand more in "wat is audit" le..
altho the percentage of understanding increased from 5% to 10% only..

in this meeting..
i heard quite some terms which i learnt during last sem in PA class..
materiality, cut-off, engagement team, cost allocation, true and fair..
wat v learn is nv a waste lol..

today after finished off my jobs(tying)..
i started statutory audit..
at first i duno wat is tat..
now i noe le.
basically, 'stat audit' is to c whether the company comply wif statutory requirement by SSH/RoM..
such as form 49 and AR(annual return)..

...
...
...

oppsss..
i'm not suppose to voice out anything i heard/see..
anyway..
tat is basically wat i did la..
v r auditor.
shud not write anything here..
if not, v r counted as selling information to third parties..
xD

ok then..
i shud cut my craps and end my post..
sayonara~

ps. 12th day le.. i found tat i reali cant stop.. haih~

11th day,,

Another monday came..
and soon it will passed..
and again tues wil reach soon..

from now on, i wil hate monday..
because it's the starting of the week..
and i worked!
not ordinary working..
everyday OT dao duno how to describe le..
it's been a norm i think.
for auditors la..
they seem to have no reaction when i leaved the place..
they stil continue working as if they r borned to work..
lol..

lik wat songher's senior told him..
find a GF in audit line..
if not, break wif her..
or wait for her to 'fei' u la..
u seriously have no extra time to paktoh le..

imagine everyday reach office around 9am..
and work..
lunch..
work..
dinner..
work..
bek home..
bath..
sleep..
and u keep on repeating tat..
repetitive action can drive ppl crazy ok..
@.@

today i went to ASTRO again..
from now on, unless there is further notice..
i wil stick to this 'ASTRO team'..
even the senior asked me today:
"tml where u go?"
"i duno.. guess stay here ba"
"serious ar? ok then.. i wil juz act dumb"..
u noe y he say so?
because one more helper means less burden..
supposingly he shud question his manager y i was there..
but instead, he chose to b dumb..
lol..

today..
hell lots of ppl from financial audit came to astro..
meeting..
an intro was given by my senior about wat shud b done..
and the dateline for each stage..
got few boleh tengok lah..
tetapi semua tua daripada saya..
macam mana makan?
@.@

today i was given a task..
compare the figure for 5 companies oni..
it took me from morning til noon 3pm..
can die weyh..
staying in front of comp and did all the excel work non-stop..
my back ache le.

and while i look into other seniors..
they use & press comp lik hell faster than anyone else i could c..
understandable la..
if u don press fast..
ur work wil never done..

guess i wil have a hard time sticking to them lol..
but i started to get interested in this company liao..
hope they wil let me stick to it til i end my internship ba..

ps. u noe?

No Boot Policy..

Now..
it reached two digit number le..
wat shud i do huh?? @.@

u noe? after starting my work life..
(altho it's juz an internship)
but i started to get stress liao..
especially v have to travel everywhere wif a big heavy bag around..

moreover, our life is exposed to threat all the moment!!
imagine, holding a bag which is used to put laptop..
worst, v looked so amatuer..

so v r the most popular targeted victims..
but v had no choice!!
other than taking public transport to client's place..
there is nothing else v could do..
not lik i own a car..
not lik i looked rich..
=.=''

therefore, v MUST take the risk..
waking up damn early in the morning..
when the sky is stil dark..
travelling KL area wif a bag which giv impression to ppl tat v r carrying a laptop around..
and the laptop itself saying "come snatch me~~" all the time..
quite scary le..

even i owned a car..
i could not left the laptop in the car oso..
no insurance le..
this is because of the policy practiced by PwC..
NO BOOT POLICY
it means if ur laptop is stolen from car, no insurance..
and v r required to pay back the cost of laptop to PwC in return..

and EVEN i have a car to drive..
driving it to the KL area..
and jam lik 1 to 2 hours after work time..
only can bek home..
is it worth going thru n fro lik tat?
haih~

so??
conclusion..
once v r PwC employee..
v took risk..
at the same time..
v learn how to 'protect' things well..
at least it helped us to increase our awareness to the surroundings..
hoep tat this two months..
i wont b 'spy' by those hu have no gd intention la..
god bless me..

ps. 10, ten, sepuluh, 十, zap, sip.

9th day..

yest nite i was chatting wif my mei..
it's been awhile since v chat..
because something terrible happened to her few days ago..
and tat, i do not wan to disturb her..
so it's been a week since she last sms me..

yest i chat wif her..
then she obviously noe wat happened to me rite..
moreover she gets no updates from me..
so yest i juz told her wat i was thinking la..

then she said a sentences to me..
放手,才是真正的拥有..
it makes me kinda think a lot la..
shud i juz released?

tat day in ts, i juz promised 1 guy n 1 girl to carry on wif my plan..
but then mei ask me don think so much..
she said mayb other girl will suit me more?
i doubt tat..
not to doubt my mei, but i'm doubting myself..

then today..
i went to tampin(near malacca) to attend a wedding dinner..
my cousin's father drove us there..
as i mentioned b4, they juz lost one of their child.
and today is their child's chinese birthday..

they talk bout something..
i wasn't really listening to it la..
but i duno y..
suddenly i heard some sentences very clearly..
"虽然他已走了,可是我们还是要去接受.. 不管怎样,事情都已发生了.. 接受是唯一的途径,这样我们才可以放心"
i amended it a bit la..
but the meaning is stil there..

surprisingly i wasnt really thinking a lot after listen to these 2 sentences..
mayb in my heart i oredi told myself wat i shud do ba..
the scene was very clearly in my mind: tat time i was standing outside McD, promising 2 of my frens wat i shud do next..
so i guess, in short term, i wont chg my mind ba..
hope so la..

n tat's all for my crapz..
hope those hu followed my blog wont b drown by the words here again n again..

ps. 9th day le.. 9 is ur favourite number..

first day in ASTRO..

my gosh..
8 days le..
EIGHT..
not a small number for me ok..
i noe it's 'fatt' in cantonese but to me..
haih~

today i started my intern at new place..
a place full wif entertainment..
called ASTRO..

i thought i was assigned to FS industry..
but astro is under EUMI..
i oso duno la..
they juz asked me to b there by 9.30am..
n tat's order..
so do it!!

recently i had a funny thinking..
b4 being an auditor, v must first b adventurer..

as from the word, auditor is do audit de ma..
always go client's place check the accounts..
but then b4 u noe how to go, u must noe where is the place..
come on man, v r working for PwC..
u think their customer ranged only in an area?
it can covered from setapak all the way to subang jaya, puchong, klang..
how was tat?
if u duno the KL de place u r reali in great trouble..
so? be an adventurer to noe all the place in KL first la..
if they assigned u some place u don even heard b4, or no idea bout it.
u r in great great trouble..
haha..

stop crapping..
today was my first time in ASTRO..
the neighbour hu work there drove me there..
so b4 i met wif my senior, he roughly bring me to tour first la..
went to lotsa place..
mainly is studio lo..

after tat he left me in cafeteria and i waited for my senior there..
b4 i can even get into work..
i hv to go thru 4 seniors!!
=.=''

first called vincent..
he asked me refer to siew..
call siew, he seeing doctor..
ask me call eryn..
eryn answered the called bu could not bring me to my workplace..
she attending meeting..
ask me call jon..
n at last..
jon came to cafeteria to bring me up to 2nd floor(finance department)..
=.=''

2nd floor is also where all the FMsss situated..
i saw phoebe there le!!
haha.

so today..
wat i did was print stuff..
change words in the document..
compare the figures between two documents..
download stuff from comp as reference..
and do hyperlink..
don underestimate this jobs...
compare the figure parts i spent almos 2 hours there!!
and i only compare 5 companies..
astro have around 100 companies le.. #.#
imagine alt+tab for thousand times?
oh no~
god saved me plz..

today i OT lesser..
1 hour oni..
but when i leave hor..
3 of my senior there not even have the sign of leaving tat place..
come on..
wat time izit now?
6.30+ le.
they oni wan to start meeting..

can see how's an suditor's life eh?
i oso started to scare le..
life lik this..
wat is tat?
one of the senior even run here and there meet other clients..
juz now i mentioned 3 senior rite?
there is 2 hours i spent in the office without seniors..
they so busy til no time 'entertainment' me le..
@.@

but i heard they get well paid..
so how was it??
choose money or choose sleeping time??
hv a rough think bout tat..
i sleep first..
nitez!

ps. i miss u, ky..

Coincidently Lucky..

i was waking damn early today..
yest slept at 11pm..
yet i not enuf sleep today..
@.@

after having breakfast wif mum..
i RUSHED to bus station..
as usual, i saw carssss movedddd damnnnnn slowwwww...
i wonder when the traffic wil b better?
since i standard 1 it's been lik tat..
o.O

my plan of the day was taking any bus to Kota Raya and walked to raja chulan..
no.62 bus reached and i boarded..
i planned to sleep de..
cauz kota raya is the last station ma..
cauz sleep til the bus stopped at final destination..

but throughtout the station on the way..
i heard tat the conductor of bus said this bus go raja chulan..
as i'm not confirmed, and i'm lazy..
i din ask..
sit there diam diam n busy looking around..
see whether i recognise any familiar building near raja chulan..

coincidently..
YES!!
it passed by raja chulan and i went down the bus..
tat means?
i no nid to walk tat 15 mins distance from kota raya to raja chulan..
coincidently lucky..
hehe..

my work start at 9..
i looked at the time..
7.45am..
=.=''
went to nearby starbuck read newspaper..
halfway thru i'm sleepy..
n i slept..
zzzzzzzz...

til the time for me to work..
i went to the building myself..
even v the interns oso earlier than senior lo..
haha..

first 1 hour..
v did ntg..
he said ntg for us to do..
so i read novel..
finished last chap over there..
haha..

then as usual..
vouching stuff coming in n out..
one simple task can drive us crazy..
especially today i nid to do a list of staff's claim..
in the end, i did a very long list out..
and there took me lik 2 hours?
@.@

lunch at a duno-wat-place..
and there burned another red note n green note..
i wanna cry liao le..

one things to b considered..
the things v learned in fap reali useful de lo..
they actuali applied the things v learned into practical..
eg: they duno whether to put provisions for something..
the boss(winnie) analyse to senior..
while analyzing, she asked us(test us gua.. @.@)
provision recognition: probable future outflow, cost measured reliably & present obligation..
same to asset recognition..
don underestimate ACCOUNTS!!!

lastly..
today OT again..
worst..
OT increased from 0.5 hrs to 1.5 hrs..
bek home oso 9pm le..
i'm oredi shout 'jiu ming' le..
everyday bek home realli tired..
all because of tat big laptop PwC gave us..
make us so san fu bring tat along.

bek home oso coincidently lucky..
thought of taking any bus to kota raya and take lrt bek..
in the end, the bus i took can straight send me to midah..
coincidently lucky again..
no nid me xin xin ku ku chg train n bus here n there..
haha..

so basically this is my story on 7th day after the incident..
everything's stil well i guess..
tml i wil stop going raja chulan..
instead, start working at astro..
let's c how's things gonna work tml..
^^

ps. one thing never chg.. i stil miss u tat much..

2nd Day of Work

today had our real first day of work..
early in the morning i went out @ 6.50am..
but i stil reached PwC ngam ngam at 8.27am..
reali kenot le..

from tml onwards..
gonna go maluri @ 6am le..
i cant afford to cont late lik this..
haih~

bersusah payahnya i went to KL Sentral today by bus..
after half an hour of staying there..
we were assigned to our respective clients.
mine, together wif biiangsheng & soonkit..
went to jalan raja chulan there to vouch client's document..

the worse thing is v r required to find our own way there!!
wat a tiring day juz by searching the building in the middle of KL city..
v were all sweating here n there..

reached and our senior is called ivan..
n there is 2 more permanent pwc worker over there..
one malay guy and one indian girl..

all v do is VOUCHING..

lunch at the weld..
had my claypot chicken rice..
and ice limau again..
oso cost around 8+..

and the indian girl..
duno la..
she's there for few days le ma.
of course asked her lead us lo..
when v wan to go food court..
she seems a bit dislik la..
in the end of course follow us to food court lo..
she ordered food..
but she did not finish it.

furthermore, when v leaved the food court..
she went to starbuck buy drink drink again..
summor she told biiang she always eat at starbuck de..
reali rich dao..
=.=''

bek there, cont VOUCHING..
when v get done our job..
it's oredi 6pm..

means wat??
OT la!!
our usual time is til 5.30pm de leh..
altho v were in client's place..
but it's stil applied to our working time..
now tat i OT..
n i wan claim OT liao!!

OT on the first day of work..
imagine how's our future??
lol..

worst come to worst..
when i leaved the place..
i drank few cups of cold coffee..
and the consequences i got is stomachache!
wth~

ache til now..
went toilet few times le..
hope everything wil b fine tml..
o.O

6 days le..
getting better..
useless de me..
@.@

Internship starts @ PwC!!

5 days le..
5 days!!!
it's not easy to past these 5 days k..

yest nite could not sleep well..
went to bed @ 1am..
but i turned til 2am oso haven sleep..
i duno wat's the cause..
lao tian ye don permit me sleep..
no idea..

wat i can say is those 1 hr on bed, i'm half conscious & having nightmare..
nightmare bout someone..
@.@

forget bout it..
as i start my intern today..
woke up at 6.30am..
had breakfast and straight i went to wait for bus..
the bus reached within 5 mins..
yet! the road was too traffic jam..
normal 5 mins distance de road oso took me 30 mins..
this is not wat i planned..
so i might b late!!

reached maluri lrt..
lucky train come on time..
interchage @ masjid jamek..
my luck oso, the train stopped juz as i reached platform..
reached KL Sentral and rushed to 1 sentral tower..
went into the room 5 mins late..
hmmm..
first day of work oredi late..
not a good start eh?? haih~

let's look at the number..
36 new interns for this batch..
5 2-months intern & 31 3-months intern..
1 from nottingham, 1 from sunway & 34 from ktar!!
34 ktar - 3 diploma, 31 adv diploma..

the day began wif all the talks by this n tat ppl..
the HR ppl hu entertained us is jaime & kaichian..
the one hu host the most is jaime..
kaichian is the main one, jaime is the sub one..
the r both realy very frenly..
when i talked to them, i don feel any distance wif them..
mayb they r oso young la..
mayb few yrs older than us?

as for lunch..
v had no choice but to eat at nearby food stall in a building..
having telur dadar + fried rice - RM6.50..
plus RM2 for ice limau..
if v r going to cont eating like this..
EVERYDAY.. n it's for LUNCH only!!
v r going to b pok(pok kai de pok)..
but the food there, boleh tahan juga la..
juz tat semua makanan itu ber-perasa malay-ish..

surprisingly eveeryone got 1 laptop for work purpose..
thought only kpmg prepare for their internship student.

so last few periods v were asked to learn bout the functions of the comp..
they add in too many gadgets le..
all together today v set le 4 passwords..
one for open comp, one is log in comp, one is lotus & 1 for hr avenue..
confusing.. @.@

seriously the comp cause us a lot of troubles..
wonder how it b lik tomorrow for work..
today was juz induction!!
hope tomorrow everything's wil b fine ba..
i'm under assurance service major in FS industry..
let's c wat job is awaiting me..

and let's hope the job can make me forget wat's sesat inside my heart ba..

ps. mayb the time isnt rite?? i'm doubting..

Gathering @ Old Town..

4th day after the incident..
i helped my mum in house cleaning..
once in every year..
to pack everything up..
and beside, cleaned everything up..
there's a lot of dust in the place where v seldom reached.

mayb my true expression is released..
sometime, my mum wil said i do things lik no soul..
i oso duno la..
mayb i kenot c myself?
and therefore din noticed?
hmmm...

so whole day cleaning my place..
mum said my place(study place) is lik rubbish..
gibberish!!!
3 stack of notes stacked as tall as one long ruler height..
i always told my mum; "after exam first la"..
and today he reali ren wu ke ren le..
no choice i hv to clean up lo..
and the end result: one stack of notes as tall as small ruler..

beside, i helped in cleaning window, cleaning door, cleaning tv, sweep floor, mop floor, packed store...........

5pm..
sleep first..
alarm set on 7pm..
woke up, bath, n i'm ready to go old town..
yilee called for a gathering..

but!
老天爷 rained!!
i cant walk to old town!

luckily got two fren reali treat me good le!!
one is kahwai..
i duno yilee ajak him..
so happened tat he called me and asked if i would need his help for a ride..
i accepted..
thx kahwai!
altho in the end u din send me, n u r late..
but ur intention is there..

another is yuan ting..
she was nearby my hse..
asking me if i would need her help to fetct me or not..
i say no..
because kah wai ajak le..
reali appreciate their intention..

i was late d..
but then so happen i saw dato!!
no choice but to chat wif him a bit oso la..
this is called manners ma..
then sit down..
only realise got kahern, yeevonne, siawwei, ningxin, yilee, meimei, foongyee & yuanting!!
surprisingly all girls..
feel lik it's 38 gang gathering le..
haha..

then v chat lo..
mainly on academic le..
then suddenly..
siawwei asked me: "stil single ar?"
er..
i blanked le yi xia xia..
duno how to ans her..

then someone said i looked stress la..
unhappy la..
i doubt m i reali looked tat bad..
@.@

all the while i thought i hide til very perfect tym.
stil got ppl felt it..
means??
my 道行 not great enuf..
must train more..

the gathering nothing much la.
juz chit chat lo.
i stil kenot let go..
bu she de!!
#.#

ps. 有时不是你不够好，也不是她不好只是你们相遇的时间可能不对

A promise to myself..

31st January 2010..

third day le..
3 days passed..
i confirmed more bout my decision..

one day passed..
bit by bit i'm recovered..
i've been thinking reali deep..

my mind is stil playing wat chris told me in TS, 5th floor, outside Mcd at around 7+pm..
3 days le..
it had not failed to run out from my brain..

when she consulted me..
she looked at me wif an eye of *something*
i duno how to describe that something..
but the eye is firm, full of hope..
altho i'm useless..
she din looked down on me..
however, she persuaded me..
offering me options..

wif her words..
i stand back up le..
the 'me' b4 & after listening to her advices..
is totally different..

b4, i was lik a dead fish..
useless de me even cxxxx!!
after, i stand lik a normal human, opting to live in dreams..
at least, tat wil b better..

today..
31st january 2010..
i shall promised to myself..
i will make the dreams come true..
even ppl would say i'm stupid..
i wont b affected by them..
my only goal is *censored*
thx chris..
thx manchun..
thx jayson..
thx for everything u all did to wake me up..

ps. i'm reali happy(true happy) on 31st january 2010 @ 12.30AM to 2.00AM..