How to confess??

Mayb it's my instinct that tell me not to worry bout anything..
but my mind always jump to the same place oftenly..

i did something very rare yest..
n i don even noe whether i asked the question correctly or not..
it seems tat i just lack of experience tat's all..

not many chances for us to practise rite???
so u cant say i can get my experience by just simply ask the same question to any girl i saw out there..
LOL..

yest after class..
man chun was having difficulties in deciding whether to confess or not..
then slowly v moved on to a topic..

cauz man chun wan to confess ma..
so of course wil think bout tat question de la rite??
can you be my girlfriend?

i din argue wif him la..
i juz laugh laugh la..
then he suddenly said shudnt ask lik this..
shud ask: can i be your boyfriend??

i duno la..
he sendiri cari pasal wif himself only..
haha..

later on we asked swee ann which one she prefered?
she said NEITHER!!
then i counter back lo:
then what kind of question you would want your future bf to ask you?? "can you couple wif me??"
feel energetic when i wan to cari pasal wif swee ann..
xD

so our conclusion is?
no conclusion..
anyone hav any idea which way v shud ask??
our white rat cant ans our question, so guess v shud ask outsider le.. xD

勇气~

今天,拿起了勇气。。
面对了自己最大的敌人 - 害怕。。

好不容易才使自己不要害怕，面对现实。。
真的嘛！
喜欢一个人要拖拖拉拉，躲躲藏藏吗？？

其实，不要面对面，还可以用其他方法的。。
可是，必要时，必须逼自己去承认。。

今天约了她出来。。
打算今天来个了结。。
不管结果如何。。
只想要一个明确的答案。。

答案那方面就不多说啦。。
回想下午所发生的一切。。
太唐突了。。
连我自己都适应不来。。
我们之间，无语……

难道要保持那样的状态吗？？
嗨~还是不要逼到她太紧啦。。
要不然，弄巧反拙就不好啦。。
加油，加油……

ps. 漫长的等待~
ps2. 爱真的需要勇气…… - 梁静茹

Too stress.. >.<

Omg..
too stress..
too much of stress..
too much of stress to take up..

I'm getting lik an iron man liao..
no nid rest jor.

everyday class until 5/5.30/6..
back to home oso around 7pm liao lo..
then will felt extremely tired and have the urge to sleep..
back home d ma..
back to our secure zone oredi ma..
so mai putting down all the burden lo..
n the tired-ness will shown..

this few day i think i can participate in college marathon liao..
running whole college lik no one's business..
Yest: DKC --> SAD --> R block --> DKC --> PA block --> library..
Today: Busstop -->R block(up and down numerous times) --> TBR --> PA block..
OMFG!!
wil die leh..
but no choice lo..
i'm organising a camp..
this is the thing i have to sacrifice le..

Recently felt lik everything is directly to me..
nothing i could let go of..
worst come to worst, i have to do everything by myself..
mayb, i shud learn to push some works to others to finish it..

If i did everything by myself..
i would b long dead liao lo~~ @.@

luckily i stil can sms someone to relief my stress a bit..
imagine i have no one to sms..
i would b sent directly to hell jor.. xD

haih~
i giv myself tomorrow a due date..
HOPE!! i can make it ba..
GAMBATE MIOW!!!

ps. ans ans??

Accounting Day 2009

i almost forgot this big event by our society tym..

this is because our junior did it quite silently..

i langsung get no updates from them..

even from the committee, v r blured too..

one day b4 tat, fri nite i received a sms..

oni i recall tat..
LOL!!

this year de accounting day is organised by the juniors that is going to replaced us nex year..
so we prepared this accounting day for them to organised to see their performance..
but, haih~

yest morning, my father fetched me to wangsa to meet the committee up.

committee is full attendance except vice president!!!

but her place is replaced by president de girlfren~

wow~~~~ xD

all of us had breakfast at bangi kopitiam..
later on we proceed to buy hamper on behalf of the juniors..

then bek to college, i'm getting very sien..
c the ppl playing games is non of my business oso..
i noe it's not my business but i as the committee shud show up n support them rite??
no choice lo~ @.@

stay there until 2++..
and to my surprise, they haven end this accounting day le..
summor the participants is not charged..
plus the juniors provide the lunch and water to participants for FOC!!
omg.. i'm getting shocked soon..

no choice, we committee left first, headed on to jusco McD!
sat there for 1 hr plus plus..
found another S&J souvenir shop there.
was so happy and hope i can found the same thing from the other outlet i wan wif a nice colour..

went into the shop hyperly, left the shop disappointly..
the colour available is the same as the outlet i went last thurs..
pink and light blue..
i wan yellow le!!!

me, xin yun, yee mong, yit woei took lrt and went to central market to look for accounting camp souvenir..
at last, we found a nice shop wif nice design and nice drawing.
straight away we paid deposit..
we hav no more time to think oredi..
this is because the camp is in 2 weeks time!!!
gan zheong~

i found another S&J shop there!!!!
yet again, disappoint filled me..
no colour that i likey for the alphabet that i wan..
>.<

yit woei suddenly said his gf bd is on wedn..
wan buy present..
so we teman him walk walk for another 1 hour lo..
oh gosh~ i'm getting tired n tired~
after he bought the present we quickly leave the shops..

on the way taking bus back to cheras, i did sth that i dont even think i will do..
mayb is the courage of the love gua.. xD
i asked something very special, hoping to get the same ans bek..
after 20 mins..
i get the ans!!! muahaha..
feeling so happy~
hope tat this happiness can stay forever~ ^^

ps. i miss you~

I MUST DO IT!!!

When u wanted to do something, there is no gurantee tat the same thing will remain there forever..

recently i felt tat my day is coming..
yes, feeling very happy..
cauz i can spend time wif someone tat i liked..

but yet, behind those happiness, there's a little bit of misery..
things could b very very easy..
but i chose to make it complicated.
dai sei or not?? LOL..

all the while, since last sem, i wanted to finish a task given by myself..
but due to many prob and many worries..
the task keep on delaying..

yes..
my fren was right..
he said if we do not make up our mind, we will keep on delay..
kenot finish?? delay~
tat's becoming my practice nowadays.
@.@

i keep on delaying..
thinking tat there is another 'next time'..
i cant afford to do this anymore..

from this sec onwards, i giv myself a due date until XX date..
i must tell myself, 'i can do it'..
sry..
I MUST DO IT!!!

i hope i wont disappoint myself..
and i hope that everything will be good to me..
god bless me~

ps.mood swing mood swing ~ happy!!! xD

Not an emo day..

Supposingly today no plan of going anywhere de..
yest got bek my last sem de result..
feel so unspirited d..
initially plan to locked myself up in my room doing wateva i can do..

woke up at 11pm..
having my breakfast as usual..
a msg came and asked me to go out somewhere..
a very tempting offer..
after few sec, i made up my mind to attend this last-min-outing..

actuali in the msg oredi stated very clear tat this is juz mere outing..
no sing k, no dota, no bowling, no movie..
JUST walk walk only..
so i agreed lo..
better than stay at home emo because of the sucked result..

1 bus all the way to timesquare..
they haven reached yet..
i went to ampang superbowl..
not to play, but to watch ppl play..

after the girls reached, we went to a restaurant beside GSC to have our lunch..
as i'm not hungry, i ordered something suggested by the girls.
(i stil duno wat i ate, juz noe it's a pizza-like food + cheese)
sambil makan sambil keng gai there..
i totally forgot wat is emo jor..
^^

then later v went walk walk around the shops..
go up and down, up and down..
just for the sake of WALK.. xD
drop by S&J souvenir shop for the longest..
feel lik buying something i saw in the shop to decorate my pendrive..
but the colour i no likey, so i juz forget bout it la..
but i might go bek to the shop anytime..
juz hope i can see something nice wif a favourite colour.
haha..

then pretty lady suddenly said wan eat cheesy wedges..
luckily i noe there's a KFC in timesquare..
so sat there for another 1 hour..

tat time around 6pm liao..
they nid to go federal hotel to meet her bro..
so v left timesquare and i oso follow them lo..
wow~ first time in federal hotel..
passed by so many times, never once i step into the building..

later on i took bus home and it took me 1 hour to reach home..
met sharon michele from my sec skul in the bus tym..
all the way i listened to music til i reached home..
tat's my daily activities..
^^

yet, i found out tat i'm quite a coward le..
don dare to voice out..
miss a chance again..
haih~

Exam Result outcha..

Today result out jor..
last sem did quite badly le..
all my mood gone after seeing the result..
~~~~~~~~~

today having 8am lecture in college..
but when v reached college and waiting for lecturer to come..
someone announced that lecturer canceled lecture!!
wth~
wake up so early, go college and was informed that FM lecture cancelled?
@.@

left CLG lecture, which v don plan to attend..
tat time was 8.30am..
except saren, jaysern n vincent which went to library rot there..
me nowhere to go..
manchun n songher paktoh-ing..
others went DKO.. AGAIN!!

then the 2 couples ajak me go yum cha wor..
mai follow them lo..
looking them pair by pair reali make me sam tong le.. >.<
especially they can spent time wif their loves one..

if lecture is on, they would spend the 2 hrs time together in lecture hall liao..
envy le~
nvm!!
speed up my process and get my own wan!! ^^

Works Overload..

I'm really stuffing myself wif loads of stuff this weeks le..

first up is the proposal for the camp..
i'm the organising chairperson!!
oh gosh, i admit it's kinda hard for me to keep up wif the works tat hv to b done..
at least, i started to learn now, better than noeing it when i start my work life.

2nd, lecture notes for student..
i'm sad to say jan intake is really a history liao..
even we are last batch of student hu is stil pursuing last sem.
but ppl seems to forget jan intake liao..
BEC notes i totally kenot photostat for my coursemate beacause miss chin(lecturer) said it's on CEL.
n the fact is, it's on MAY INTAKE CEL, not jan intake de..
CLG notes supplier seems to forget jan intake as well and he just photostat for MAY INTAKE!!
FAP notes cant find lecturer to get the notes as last few days he had meeting til evening..
n even before first lecture MAY INTAKE oredi got their notes!!
FM tutorial question, sbs office suppose to photostat for us..
but they din!! oni photostat for MAY INTAKE!!
they don even collect the tutorial question till today 16/10/2009!!
TI notes initially teacher say don wan giv, then now wan giv pulak..
haih~ oni these things oredi make me feel lik commit suiciding..
JAN INTAKE reali 多灾多难 ar!!

3rd, i have to deal some money stuff wif Accounting Day Committee.

4th, i need to withdraw some amount of money from bursary for TARC-ACCA workshop le..
need find president sign, then get chop, then find ms. yeo sign, then need send to SAD, then need to send to bursary, then need wait 3 days to get the money, then have to claim back the money from ACCA.
@.@

5th, i have to worry my own personal-related stuff..

6th, i have to find time to start learning my driving..

7th, i have to find time deposit accounting society money to bursary..
and i think tat wil spend me half afternoon..

fuuuuhhhhh~~~
now i realised 24 hours for 1 day is not enuf le..
hope i can settle everything without affecting my studies ba..
^^

ps. i miss you, do u miss me??? ^^

答案..

今天。。
本应有一个了结的。

第一，
自己不忍心面对。。

第二，
自己没尽权利找机会。。

第三，
自己败在自己脚下。。


五天前，
下定决心今天要搞嚸一切。。

结果，
机会溜了，至今还没有一个答案。。

对自己有了些小小的失望。。
加油吧。。

I'm a little bit sensitive..

I found tat i will be influenced by the surrounding very easily..

altho i acted everytime tat i'm not tat observant..

but actuali, i quite observant one..

so whenever a fren did something..

even a small thing, will affect me deeply..

normally if i smsed those close ppl, i wil use the sarcastic way to sms..

so sometime i too over, n if the ppl nv reply me, i would think tat she/he angry d..

sometimes, my mouth act faster than my brain..

n i wil said something 'hurtful' tat makes me feel guilty eventhough he/she din angry..

Anything not up to my expectation, i wil juz curse curse curse..

but after cursing, i wil asked myself, y i cursed?

i oso duno y i feel lik this le..

weirdo..
@.@

can i not b tat sensitive??
cauz it wil make me fall into a very emo state..
normally the first 30 mins after the incident, this 'illness' will be very severe..
then it will ease slowly.. but not fully..
haih~
i oso cant help myself..
can u??

Looking at the back..

Once in a while, i will looked back at my life's path..
not purposely, but coincidently..

yest, when i was in a deep thinking bout something..
i thought of my sec skul time..

i would oftenly think tat last time i should do this, do tat..
things at the past, seems to b an easy view to me now..

juz take an example, sejarah form 3..
sejarah for pmr is very easy..
u juz hav to go thru the 3 texbooks..
no nid memorize so hard..
n u can score well..
but, y cant i score well tat time??
@.@

suddenly, i thought of the girl i liked last time..
few girls la..
of course!! not at the same time ok!
it would hav been easy if i dare to voice out to them n said the 3 short n easy words - I LIKE YOU..
n probably, i would have my first blood earlier..

standing at the time capsule, looking at the back..
i will find myself, sometimes, ridiculous..
y should/shouldn't i did tat??
things mayb easy if v r direct, if v do not think too much..
mayb... i was juz think too much.. last time..
>.<

Sensitive nose.. >.<

I'm having flu..
once again..
very unfortunately le..

mucus keep flowing out..
hv to stuck a tissue paper in my nose..
or else i cannot tahan liao le..
feel so weak.. @.@

first week of the sem passed liao la..
all the lecturer oso i saw liao la..
some is gd, whereas some speechless..

Law lecturer - Ms. Zita Lau..
cant tahan her voice..
very soft, very childish..
izit every law lecturer cant attract my atention??
or was it tat this kinda subj cant attract ppl's attention?? X.X

Econs lecturer - Ms. Chin..
carmen said she was a nice lecturer..
i personally feel so too..
not reali 100% gd..
but can tahan la..
at least i wont sleep during her class..

Financial Management lecturer - Ms. Prema..
heard tat she wil b late for most of the class..
lecture first class late for 30mins!!
this subj wont b bored gua..
i think so la..

Financial Accounting lecturer - Mr. Soo..
confirm wont sleep..
he talked a lot..
crap a lot..
muahaha..

Tamadun Islam lecturer - Ms. ???
i duno y i hv to study this subj..
langsung takda guna betul la..
not lik nex time u go out n work u hv to ans 'how tamadun islam formed' rite?

haih..
this sem de subj quite diff le..
gotta work yself hard to study le..
or else din get scholarship for advance diploma i...............
haih~

DKO... again...

very fast..
juz started our new sem for 2 days..
yet, we went back to DKO again le..
this time, wif 2 newbies..

initially we don hv any plan de..
but bunch of monkeys keep asking us to go DKO..
summor this time carmen will be going oso..
carmen going, man chun sure go liao de la..
how can he miss this chance rite??? xD

then left us - me, songher, biiang & sweeann..
don wan make her wait for us le..
so v kinda asked her to play Left 4 Dead there!!
after 10 minutes of persuading + tempting offer, plus carmen there to tarik her..
at last, she cant control oso..
play L4D wif us..
nyek nyek... xD

me, manchun, carmen, sweeann played L4D..
at last, oni i get saved..
others?? in memory le.. xD
those guys play DotA..
i duno them la..
i heard they scold here scold there again le..
this is kinda usual d..

so tat's all for my report on day 2 of last sem in college...
starting nex week v hv 4 hours of break time..
where else??
DKO la!!
XD

Damn Sick..

today is sunday le..
supposingly i'm hyper on sunday de..
manatau yest i kena from sick!!

reali hate the feeling of sick..
apa pun tak boleh buat..
can oni lie on bed whole day..
plus u feel so sleepy yet u cant reali sleep sweetly..

yest went for amali kelas aka enjin class..
pass my undang..
1 more step to get my 'L' license is go for this 6 hours bored class..
class started at 9.30..
tat time i stil ok de lo...
10++ then i feel myself very uneasy liao.
very pening kepala..
feel lik lying..
but the kelas hv no place for me to lie..
plus 30++ ppl there..
omg.
this time die liao..

the time passed very slow..
first 3 hours is kelas-oriented de..
the remaining 3 hrs is some sort lik pratical kelas.
all of us surrounded the kancil, listen to the instructor lecturing..
but me, sitting aside lik a dead cat..
nv listen to the instructor at all..
no choice.. too sick le..

at last!! 6 hrs passed!!
i immediately went bek home n hv my mum's herb b4 i sleep..
nite tat time my highest record is 38.9 degree celcius..
o.O

nearly go to heaven lol!!
but i survived!!
yeah~
cauz there's a positive will in my heart..
i must survive!! xD

ps. yet, i stil miss u.. ^^

Undang test..

oh yes..
i pass my undang test..
this sat gonna take my amali lesson b4 getting my L license..
c.. i nv disappoint any party.. xD

sometimes i prefer to stay at home..
because there lied a bed for me to sleep on it..
n v can rest n do wateva v wan at wateva time..
but hor..

however!!
staying at home got another disadvanages de lo..
mum wil asked us to do this n do tat..
expecially those hu dont hv maid de lo..

today i lied at sofa very nice de lo..
lazy stand up de tym..
but hor!!
mum suddenly ask me throw rubbish, sweep floor, wash plate..
then go kitchen take plastic bag put at dustbin.
then ask me babsit baby for awhile..
omg!!!!!
i cannot tahan le..
but wat to do?? mum's order le..
can don wan do meh?? @.@