Relationship..

This few days cant reali sleep well.. T.T
mayb is the weather's fault gua..
too hot liao..

but due to these..
i keep on thinking the past of me..
i keep on thinking prob i face now..
n lastly i keep on thinking bout someone..

all these 3 things related to 1 theme..
~relationship~
i cant resist to recall this kind of thing when i'm tired n stil i cant sleep..

around form 3..
tat time i remember got few girls..
keep on sms me forward msg..
but i do no action..
i thought it was normal..
so i reply them another forward msg n tat's all from me..
recently, when i think back bout these..
i feel so stupid for myself..
for not realising there's ppl over there..
count for tat, i hv 3 ppl..

then til form 5..
i jump here n there for my target..
the reason is simple..
cauz i don wan to confess..

when i lik someone..
i dare not confess..
it's not the prob of courage or not..
i choose for the better side..
i prefer to stay at the situation lik now when v can stil talk n chat happily..
when i think of confess wil bring the possibility of getting further..
n ruin the situation..
there's no confession made by me..

so from A to B..
from B to C..
the ppl tat i lik keep on jumping..
stil..
no confession..

til now, i quite regret for it le..
cauz i nv try to get it..
i nv try n i wil nv noe de result.
but, as i said, i prefer to maintain..
at least v gurantee the current relationship wont chg rite..
dare not take risk..
count for tat, i hv 5 ppl gua.

then one more thing..
think back bout the first time i confess..
it's lik..
haih..
til now i oso feel uneasy when i think back of tat..

now..
oso hv the same prob le..
altho my fren keep on saying 'go for it'..
but..
again..
i prefer for the better site..
remain silence..

there's one sentence tat follow me gua..
if now can b better, then i choose now..
mayb i'm too kind..
haih..
>.<