Courage..

Courage..
This word is nice..
This word is awesome..
It brings the positive meaning..

But somehow everyone is lack of this courageness..
of course it's include me..
don think i'm very brave la..
i'm very humble de.. xD

come on..
this is not a speciality i hav since i'm born..
i don hv the potential to b a speaker..
unlik some banana(i'm sry to call u all banana) which can speak wif their bombastic word..
my eng is damnnnn not gd at all..

i think, i don dare to stand in front of the whole crowd..
first, no nid say it's courage lo..
another it's because of my deformed eng standard!!
no confidence..
damn problematic..
damn cacated..
yes.. tat's the word..
cacated..

this is the barrier..
for once i wan to learn to speak in english..
but the surrounding factors doesnt allowed me to do tat..
to the most, i can oni speak english to jon & vincent because they r b****a..
n i feel sucks when the word is not there when i wan to use it..
i TRY to speak english to them but half way i wil stucked by my word..
thinking of how to translate chinese to eng..
=.=''

but, when i'm back from the camp..
altho it's not fully..
at least the courage in me is increasing..
i presented once in the camp for the mind mapping..
n i don feel any nervous at all..
this is the first time, i presented something n b4 tat i was totally un-nervous..

talking back bout the camp is reali a nice memory in me..
altho someone commented tat the number of ppl participate is lik SHIT..
but i do feel tat this camp is a real success..
once again thx to the organising committee for bringing us joyness in the camp.. ^^

back to the topic - courage..
juz now i mentioned the courage when facing the crowd..
now, relationship..

nowadays i feel so emo when i recall back wat i've not done in secondary skul..
for once i lik 3 or 4 girls..
not at the same time la.. =.=''
but then i treasure the friendship between me n them, i don dare to confess to them altho i lik them..
for some, i don regret cauz i feel tat being friends is more possible..
but for another, i did regret tat i don hv the courage to confess..

lik now, i oso no courage to confess to the girl i lik..
altho there are several circumstances, but IF i hv the courage..
haih..

courage~~ courage~~ where are you???
>.<