Strong Feeling..

This post is posted as 31st january(sunday)..
however it's on 12.12am..
so let's treat this post as saturday de post ok?

today is the 2nd day..
whole day i was stil moving myself into yest de scene..
from the point i woke up on the bed..
til now i was writing this post..
never once failed..

eventho i can forget it.
it wont last more than 10 mins..

one thing i must say..
i'm not down!
i'm juz a bit erm..
negative thinking a bit lo..
cauz i reali cant forget her..
did i try my best? duno.. don ask me.. ask my inner heart..
altho a lot of ppl said: it's time to let me let go le..
2 yrs le..
2 yrs wasted..
i had burned my 2 yrs time..
but at this point..
i realized..
i'm no fight to my real heart..
my real heart have a strong feeling..

at first i thought tat feeling will fade..
juz lik smoke..
slowly disappear..
but it's proven..
it wont..

strong feeling..
this strong feeling oso prevent me from dropping into a state called emo..

however i shud reali thx 3 ppl in guiding me to find my strong feeling..
one is man chun..
i reali bu hao yi si le..
the time i summoned him to my side..
he was having sweet time wif his fiancee..
even tat few hrs is his last few hrs tat can b spent wif her in KL lo.
i took it away..
hereby saying sorry to carmen, sylvia & sin li..
sorry to tze vei, fong chin n john too..
because i act rude in front of them..

then 2nd n 3rd ppl..
is a couple..
chris and jayson..
reali shud thx her to bring me up from emo..
luckily tat time when the incident happened..
they are at the same place..
n i'm glad tat the first up after finding manchun, i found them..
she reali helped me a lot..
she made things clear for me..
narrow down my thinking into 2 options..
and lastly forced me to make one decision..

so now..
with the decision..
i'm here to continue my strong feeling..
it's always better to live in dreams rather than reaity..
isnt it?

ps. i wil.. trust me..

Another day in TS..

Today go ts is for another purpose..
i noe wat wil happened today..
yest din hv a gd nite sleep..
thinking bout lots of stuff..
scare this..
scare that..

then today reached TS le i straight buy birthday card..
n a valentine card too..
having a movie wif her..

then v went to BBQ plaza to hv lunch...
she ate most of the meat n vege and everything la..
after the meal, real parts come.
the part which i'm afraid to face myself..
i scared kena hurted twice..

the conversation went on quite smooth..
in a peaceful way..
v talk bout everything openly le..
for once i thought i stil got hope..
but then later on she directly rejected me..
the moment she said tat, i felt a cold air surround me in tat moment..
then nose a bit sour..
but in the end, i made a gd performance in front of her..

i asked her quite a few of time wat is her final ans?
she stil ans 'fren'..
the more hope i put, the more disappointment i get..
hope vanished by her mouth..
neng jiao ren bu xin tong ma?

met cf, wanna pass sth to her..
unintentionally i cxxxx..
useless de me..
haih~

then find mc in redbox..
then find ah ma bek to get some advice..
then let 3 ppl consulted me..
ah ma not bad lo..
her thinking more mature than me..

they forced me to choose 1 option from 2 after the incident..
then i chose to xxxx xxx xxx.

tat's the end of the day..
conclusion..
i let a girl tat i like reject me..
tat's the main point ppl wan to hear..

ps. giving myself hope..

A day in TS..

Yest..
my mood was a bit unstable..
so i sought out a way..
today i went TS..
whole day!
can see new clothes, can make myself happy oso..

then 12.45pm reached TS..
no where of my fren..
shud b on train gua.
grabbed a newspaper and read it..

fren reached..
starting our shopping day..
my mood at first quite er.. moodless de..
then shop xia shop xia..
getting better lu..

shop from 1pm til 7 sth..
in the middle got break time at old town..
beside, i bought one shirt..
tml gonna go there again buy another one..
oh ya, met fong chin there..
coincidently..

altho my mood not fully recover yet, but it's getting better bit by bit..
AT LEAST it's getting better..
thx to jenny de mere advice..

hereby have to thx chris, jayson & jenny..
altho they wont b seeing this..
juz express my gratitution here la..
thx u for accompanying me a day in TS..

Mood: Up n Down..

Today mood oso quite not bad yi xia de..
but then..
when i read mei's blog..
i suddenly feel sry for her..
i duno she dun lik make decision..
then i forced her to make decision the other day..
made her cry summor..
my mind feeling not so right le..
how can me as a korkor make a meimei cry de?
useless de me..

then fb awhile..
got ppl wan chat wif me..
of course i happy la..
summor trading ingredients in Restaurant City..
summor exchanging ingredients..
mood reached peak line..

then saw someone de status changed liao..
happy for them la..
they knew each other in july lik tat.. now together liao.. officially at 26th January 2010.
congratz..

then leave me alone stil single lo..
then suddenly think a lot..
down..
when i done thinking..
i was telling myself..
got chance de..
man man lai..

then saw her on9..
then chat xia chat xia she gimme an ans le..
mood go down again..
tat time i reali feel lik crying le..
mong dun dun wan cry..
useless de me.

then after 30 mins..
chat wif her in msn..
kinda ok le..
mood getting better..

then now i alone facing comp again..
when i'm all alone, i reali think a lot..
mayb the lucky lady is not wif me ba..

fri stil got last chance..
i don wish to lose her..
altho the possibility of her changing mind is very low.
but let's hope miracles happen..
@.@ T.T

Funssss after the last paper!! ^^

Due to some problem arise during the exam..
the plan tat v ought to carry on is failed..



after the exam..
v were suppose to either sing k, bowling, or movie..
but then sth happened tat make us unable to decide wat shud v do next.
bunch of guys, standing outside the toilet..
wondering wat plan shud v go for..
@.@

in the end?? DotA!
went orange for 3 hours..
those guys were playing DotA staright 3 rounds..
while me, i play DotA, Maple & SDO..
haha..



then i attend the junior's meeting..
found sth quite funny..
there's even a big quarrel happened in the meeting..
and oso..
someone quarrel til cry tat type..
wow~
nv happened in my batch le..
mayb because they too much ppl le ba..
whereas our batch oni lik 小猫七八只~ xD



yet, the meeting is kinda directionless..
mayb they r all stil new to this ba..
hope they can improved next time lo~ ^^



later on follow yap, kristy, angel, chris, jenny, jayson n gang to KLCC watch..

TIGER WOOHOO!! 大日子!!

haha..
nice show nice show..
altho it's a pure malaysian, it's stil a up-to-standard show lo..
cauz usually the local product de not so nice de ma..
jkjk.. xD

later on kristy brought us to sake sushi for our dinner..
first time in there..
the food there boleh tahan la..
i like the dumpling..
very crispy.. xD
but one disadv, kinda expensive lo!
haha..



later on i balik rumah sendiri lo..
whereas other ppl went to alpha to drink wine..
tak tau mereka macam mana sekarang..
ahaha..



this is the last time i meet them le..
kinda sad when i wan to leave them tat time..
nvm la..
stil got chance de..
^^

End of Diploma..

With my last paper, Financial Management paper..
being handed up to the invigilator..
i ended my diploma life in college..

now, i'm here writing this post..
feel a bit down..
frens tat i've known for 2 years..
the usual lecture group will be dismiss..

JAN INTAKE..
last jan intake in the college..
felt a bit proud of it..

after this..
v will moved on to the next stage of our life..

nevertheless,
i've gone thru my diploma in a nice way..
in a way tat i think worth my brain space to store the memory..
wil post sth bout tat in a few days..

nv regret choosing accounting~

100件你不知道的事情。。。。

1.没有一张纸可对折超过9次
2.根据统计每年驴子所杀的人比飞机失事所死的人还多
3.人睡觉比坐着看电视所消耗的卡路里还多
4.第一种有条形码的对象是香口胶
5.Wright’s Brother发明飞机后第一次试飞的路程比一架波音747飞机的飞机翼还短
6.1987年,美国一间航空公司将每个头等机位的飞机餐减少一粒橄榄后,节省了约35万港元
7.很多人每朝起来都喝一杯咖啡提神,但其实一个苹果比一杯咖啡还有效
8.你的家中多数尘埃都是你的死皮
9.洋娃娃Barbie 全名是Barabra Millicent Roberts
10.希特勒的妈妈在怀有希特勒时曾认真地考虑堕胎,不过被医说服,结果把他生下来
11.玛丽莲.梦露有6只脚趾
12.电影里,ET的脚步声是由一位工作人员用手将o者o里榨烂
13.珍珠在醋中会溶
14.登寻找情人广告中,有35%是已婚人士
15.你有可能将一只牛拉上楼梯,但牛是不懂下楼梯的
16.猪不能仰头望天空
17.‘quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog' 可以用尽26个字母
18.鸭的叫声是不会有回音的,暂时没有人知何解
19.蜗牛可不吃东西睡3年
20.著名影星Tommy Lee Jones与美国副总统曾经是哈佛大学同房
21.如果一个月中,第一天是星期日,那个月便出现黑色星期五
22.把石头放在微波炉中加热会爆炸
23.1,111,111 x 1,111,111 = 1234567654321
24.唯一一个有15英文字母而又不会重复是的英文字’uncopyrightable’
25.猫可发出超过100个音,狗却只能发10个音
26.愈黑的环境下,猫的排尿次数会增加
27.将一个硬币向上抛1000次,字向上的次数是495次,不是500次,因为公较重
28.根据牛顿字典世界上最长的英文字是 　　'pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis’
29.人体的胃每2个星期便会更新一次分泌物,否则它会自我消化
30.可乐原是绿色的
31.夏威夷文只得12个字母
32.走路上班的人最高比率的省是阿拉斯加
33.如果Barbie是人类,她是身形是39-23-33
34.美国平均每小时在空中的人有61000人
35.只有一种食物不会变坏:蜜糖
36.在加勒比海附近有一种蚝是会爬榭的
37.世界上最年轻的父母在1910年出现,一个8岁及另一个9岁的中国人
38.人顃的鼻及耳是毕生都不断长大
39.日本有一种正方形的西瓜,为的是方便收藏
40.海星有8只眼,每只脚都有一只
41.有些昆虫的眼是有毛
42.一条长颈鹿的舌头有2尺长
43.大象可用头来站立
44.蚂蚁早上醒来会抓痒
45.伟大发明家爱迪生是怕黑的
46.世上最老的金鱼是41岁,名叫Fred
47.爱因斯坦9岁时不能流利说话,他妈妈曾经一度以为他是弱智
48.阿拉伯的女人可以因为丈夫不为她倒咖啡而提出离婚
49.只有55%的美国人知道太阳是一个星体
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51.长颈鹿没办法咳嗽
52.猫头鹰是唯一能够分辨颜色的鸟类
53.一只鲸鱼一分钟心跳只有九下
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55.只有百分之三十的人可以放大缩小自己的鼻孔
56.一只牡蛎的性别会由男变女,此后一生中还会变个几次
57.根据一项1845年由英国通过的法律,自杀是非常严重的罪,最重可以处以吊死的极刑
58.在太空中航天员是没办法哭的,因为没有地心引力,眼泪流不出来
59.一只变色龙的舌头是它自己身体的两倍长
60.最常用牙签的人是美国人
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62.大象死后还会保持站立姿势
63.有些昆虫没有头还可以再活上一年
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68.虎鲨的胚胎在母亲的子宫里需经过激烈的搏斗,胜利者就是可以活着出生的小虎鲨
69.一只70磅的章鱼可以穿过一个仅一枚银币大小的洞,因为他们没有脊椎
70.印尼竹节虫是全世界最大的昆虫,有些光是身长就有一呎长
71.其实,河马跑得比人快
72.降落伞的发明人把第一次乘坐降落伞的机会让给了一只狗
73.一只日本大螃蟹可能长达12呎
74.刚出生的小火鸡要有爸爸妈妈教导如何吃东西,不然会饿死
75.一只鲨鱼可以侦测到水中仅百万分之一含量的血液
76.桑巴舞的森巴原来的意思是一起磨肚脐吧
77.小孩子在春天长得比较快
78.蝙蝠是唯一能飞的哺乳动物
79.一只毛虫身上有超过两千条的肌肉
80.人的心脏可以产生把血液喷出三十尺高的压力
81.公的合掌螳螂头还在身体上的时候没办法交配,所以,母的合掌螳螂在进行交配之前, 先要把雄的头砍掉
82.虾米的心脏在头部
83.你永远不可能用你的舌头舔到你的手肘
84.世界人口50%的人从来都没有接过电话
85.老鼠和马不能呕吐
86."Sixth Sick Sheik's Sixth Sheep's Sick "是英文中最难以发言的一个句子
87.打喷嚏过于强劲了,会导致胸腔破裂,但是如果你想要将这个喷嚏强行忍住,却会导致 你头或者是脖子中某个血管的破裂
88.如果你打电话超过一个小时,那么你耳朵里的耳屎会增加大概700倍左右
89.打火机是比火柴更早发明出来的
90.据说,在你睡觉的时候,在你不知不觉中,你会吃入七十多种虫子和十多只蜘蛛
91.人类全身上下,最强韧有力的肌肉,竟是舌头
92.张开眼睛打喷嚏是不可能的
93.憋气自杀也是不可能成功的
94.每一次你舔一张邮票的背胶,你就吸收了十分之一卡路里
95.右撇子平均比左撇子多活九年
96.鱼无法伸出它们的舌头
97.北极熊都是左撇子
98.鸵鸟的眼睛比脑袋大
99.海星至今还没演化出脑
100.跳蚤可以跳过它们350倍身长的距离,相当于一个人跳过一个美式足球场

Study mode/mood..

ok..
i knew..
most of the ppl shud say this..
"enter into study mood"..

but how many ppl can actuali enter into full perfect study mood huh??
nowadays, in our era..
there is this website called FACEBOOK which always attracting us to visit 'him'..

i can c from ppl's post..
writing "puasa for fb for 2 weeks / don wan touch fb le"..
but in the end, i can see some reply "i caught u playing facebook! / i thought u said don wan touch fb?"

wat does this shows here??
facebook influence is so great tat almost every ppl cant resist it!! xD
even me..
i'm telling myself tat i don wan touch fb le..
but in the end??
i fb for 2 hrs juz now le.. =.=''
omg..
kenot la lik this..
@.@

final exam is near..
past few days, i spent my time in library study..
thx to my juniors de influence..
i even stayed in fren's hostel so tat it wil b more convenient for me to go lib..

after this, i shall end my diploma..
but b4 tat..
i must first visit 'hell' for 5 days..

16 - Tamadun Islam
18 - Corporate Law & Governance
21 - Business Economics
23 - Financial Accounting Practice
25 - Financial Management

after this..
i shall fly!! xD
but it's stil subjected to my performance in these 5 last papers..
if i did it well, yes, fly la..
if not, i would buried myself under the bed for 3 months until my adv diploma starts..
ahaha..

gd luk my frens..
gd luk my juniors..
n oso..
gd luk to myself..

ps. time to take a rest from this blog.. ~^^~

Songs..

《说谎》- 林宥嘉

是有过几个不错对象
说起来并不寂寞孤单
可能我浪荡让人家不安
才会结果都阵亡

我没有什么阴影魔障
你千万不要放在心上
我又不脆弱何况那算什么伤
反正爱情不就都这样

我没有说谎我何必说谎
你懂我的我对你从来就不会假装
我哪有说谎请别以为你有多难忘
笑是真的不是我逞强

我好久没来这间餐厅
没想到已经换了装潢
角落那窗口闻得到玫瑰花香
被你一说是有些印象

我没有说谎我何必说谎
你知道的我缺点之一就是很健忘
我哪有说谎是很感谢今晚的相伴
但我竟然有些不习惯

我没有说谎我何必说谎
爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样
别说我说谎人生已经如此地艰难
有些事情就不要拆穿

我没有说谎是爱情说谎
它带你来骗我说渴望的有可能有希望
我没有说谎祝你做个幸福的新娘
我的心事请你就遗忘



《礼物》- 刘力扬

终于可以在今天划上句点
一整夜翻阅过去画面
快想不起我们为何会诀别
只看到那双你送的鞋

走一步又一步
我才发现绕了个圈
走了好几年
又回到原点

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

世上最残酷的恐怕是时间
困住人一切却还向前
干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸
爱到如此可悲的境界

走一步又一步
却跟不上你的脚步
你满意了
为什么我却只想要哭

你送的礼物会不会太特别
毫不避讳那不安的传言
但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉
难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴
陪我回忆把过往走一遍
穿了这些年难免会有污点
就像每段爱总会有终点

你说做自己吧
我们都做回自己
不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物原来是一场劫
终于分别夙命一样准确
可笑到想要你赔给我时间
爱情有时廉价得可怜

光著脚我一路奔跑
鲜血泪水一路狂飙
收起我的骄傲
承认曾经备受煎熬
鞋上那记号
只有你能明了
过了这一夜
我就全忘掉


these 2 songs is my favourite for now..
it kinda matched wif my feelings rite now..
i like the lyrics..
i like the rhymes..
i like the songs..
^^

Outing b4 Final..

I believe this is the last outing b4 my final..

Final exam is coming..

this is the last week of semester b4 the final..

therefore, most of the lecture and tutorial is canceled..

today is monday..

supposingly class started 2pm..

but lecture canceled..

so class start 4pm, end 6pm..

hav a lots of free time in the morning..

biiang called for an outing..

ok lo..

he's the driver..

i say no, 得罪 3 ppl leh..

so i hv to say yes.. xD

there's a funny part in the parking..

the way our mr driver parked the parking is very damn funny..

turn here n there..

keep on giving us 假象 oni..

make us laugh lik shit.. xD

next stop, v were standing in front of the counter of GSC..

thinking which movie to watch..

took us half an hour there..

lol..

In the end, decided to watch vampire's assistant..

quite a nice one to watch le..

b4 v chose this movie, v oso scare it wil b bored..

and not worth the ticket price..

because no fren of us said it's nice nor giving a positive review..

but it seems tat the movie turned out to b a nice and funny 1..

waiting for the sequel of this movie..

^^

after the show, went bowling..

lousy performance by me..

played 2 games..

not even 1 scored above 100..

off form off form!!!

sien le~

went college on time..

oni to notice the ppl in the class is??

half of our class member.. =.=''

left 1 tutorial question to discuss..

but prema said tat topic wont come out..

so?

DISMISS!!

walaueh~~~

xin xin ku ku went college juz to attend the tutorial..

instead, it becum a short gathering btw us and the tutor, Mr Chua Kim Kian..

convinced him to add us in the facebook..

had been nagged him to add us since the start of the sem..

now oni add..

lol..

and tat's the end of the day..

b4 going bek home..

i sent a messenger to giv 'support' to my meimei..

in return, she left library le..

lol..

wat a waste..

haih~

ps. i'm trying to let go, but i cant.. how??

Review of 2009..

Now..
had a glimpse at year 2009..
i juz realise, the year passed very fast..

looking back to my past..
looking back, wat i've done thru the whole year of 2009..
got happiness..
got sorrow..
got frustrating..
got disappointment..

all the things tat happened to me..
all sort of things..

juz to recall bek wat i can recalled..

Happiness


i knew quite a number of new frens..
going for acca camp, acc leadership camp, acc development camp made me knew them..
knew yihua, cathy, carmen, xingyi in acca camp..
almost half of group 18..
then went carmen bd i knew almost 90% of grp 18 le..
going acc leadership camp made me knew angel, jenny, chris, blue, kristy, deepak..
all juniors la..
btw, joining accounting society is undeniably a correct path tat i chose..
there, i knew quite a number of juniors, which i can communicate better with them than my age-mates..
other than listed above, stil got jeevan, yap, euwing, ailing, jingjing..
i stil think tat joining juniors can make me feel more relief with them..
i can hv more truthfulness feeling wif them compare to the others..
the feeling is undoubtly an enjoyable one..

Sorrow


there's only one source of sorrow..
the death of my .....
forget bout it le..
u wil always leave in our memory..

Frustrating


few occasions..
i don even noe wat i did wrong..
perhaps..
i was wrong since the beginning..
all i did was caring to others..
i'm being kind to my fren..
at least i think so..
n yet, another of my fren said i was acting to b nice..
i stil kenot reali put down this matter..
mayb u shud say i'm unforgetful ba..
my purpose is there, n other ppl sees it as a diff one..
yet, a severe one..
how can i not b frustrated??
my heart was pain for tat period..
y there wil hv this kind of return when i act gd??
i stil duno wat human was thinking..

Disappointment


mayb i'm not suppose to reveal those things here..
but i shall touched it a bit..
the biggest disappointment during last yr was the seperation of my group's girl gang..
they used to b a group of 9..
now being seperated into group of 3 and group of the remaining..
i'm not trying to blame anyone..
wat i wan to stress up here is i'm disappointed seeing my fren, living in misunderstanding..
y cant she open up her mind a bit and practise the law of forgiv & forgot?
these matters chains the other matters as well..
the last gathering of DAC jan intake group 3..
it's a failure project..
all because of the things mentioned up there..
some trying to avoid the gathering..
some say no time for this..
in the end? *poof*
the last sweet memory of our group juz gone off lik tat..

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basically tat's my year 2009 ba..
the big 4 feeling of myself in tat particular enjoyable mixed miserably year..
all i hope now is, let go the past, sightseeing future..
a wonderful, dreamable & enjoyable future..
i must believe a beautiful future is waiting for me..
~^^~

Happy New Year 2010!!

Today started a fresh new year..
YEAR 2010!!!

new year, new life, new things..
oso not less.. new mood!!
haha..

now i'm being hyper..
when i c those ppl tat i can joke wif..
i seriously will b very de crazy..
so shud chg a bit la..
or else..
in cantonese v says..
称呼人少,得罪人多.. xD

there's some new year resolution of mine la..
stil in the process of drafting..
wait til i finish le i post it out ok??
^^

In this year, i hope everyone can b better off than last year..
anything unhappy..
let it go ba..
it's oredi past le..
summor it's oredi becum history in our life..
wat for wan to recall it isnt it??
haha..

stil the word..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

~^^~