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Sunday, February 28, 2010

No Man's Island..

Juz back from No Man's Island..
The term is created by songher..
indicated v cant precisely predict the time there..
time in No Man's Island is very abstract..
when u thought it's juz 5pm..
the actual time already 7++pm..

this time round..
again 3 days 2 nights..
in kah wai's hse..
those hu attend is decreasing..
last time v can make up to 3 rooms..
but this time round v only occupied 2 rooms..
wif 4 ppl sleep per night only..

but at last..
all ppl attend oso la..
me stayed the longest..

there..
v gamble most of the time..
last time only poker..
this time..
v played 3 games..
poker, blackjack and in between..
in between is a new game in our tradition la..

my first time playing this game oso..
quite fun to play de.
u get two card at first..
then get the third card..
third card must between the first two cards only u can get money..
if it's outside the range..
u have to pay money to pot in between..
if u hit the 'tiang', as in u get the same card of either the first 2 cards u get..
u have to pay double for the money u called..

ehy..
don play play ar..
i once get 2 and K ok!
and it's lik confirm win jor de lo..
but then i don wan to b obsessed wif my greediness..
so i called 5 bucks..
and wth?! i got 2?!?!
realy kenot greddy le..
imagine if i greedy tat time?
i wil have contribute more into the pot and pk lik songher lo..

and of course..
first time play poker wif them oso la..
last time i don wan played..
but then after i played in facebook..
i don think it's hard anyway..
so this time i joined them..
twice..
i confirm win le..
double pair.
at last oso lose..
haih~~

instead, this time v seldom sing k le..
altho the sing k devices is juz in front of us..
the only time v sing is sat nite after 11.59pm..
when everyone leave..
and tat's only shu pin sing i think..

oh yeah..
sat noon..
when everyone is in karaoke room..
EVERYONE!
include those who din play..
when dealer is giving out the cards..
i take the opportunity to 'observe' songher..

of course i'm not gay!
but then i saw some interesting part..
in 30 seconds..
tat 30 seconds only la!
he changed his attention to someone 4 times!
i catch tat moment..
damn funny..
i wonder wat songher said bout "2 is better than 1" is true ar?
kesian his gf weyh~

wat else huh?
ermmmm...
first nite v went to paparich to have supper+dinner..
i forgot wat's the name of the drink i ordered le..
but it's nice..
it's D22..
try find out whether it's same or not la..
undoubtly, the foods and drinks there is expensive, but stil affordable la..

oh yea..
kahwai pointed out some 'lenglui' while v were attending his father's company event..
there is this girl..
he said quite pretty de la..
wearing all white..
but then i don feel tat she is pretty le..

if not because kahwai showed her picture in facebook before v met her..
i realli don think she is pretty de lo..
however, her pic in facebook quite pretty de lo.
y so big diff de ar?
haih..

other seems interested wif the girl..
but then i no interest le..
izit my heart stil occupied or i really don think she's pretty?
which one?
haih~

but then when i sit there there alone observing her..
of course i stil don think she is pretty..
but i do have one thought..
girl hu wear all-white could b very nice..
very comfortable to see..
no other intention than tat!
those guy, dont think yang bukan bukan!

erm..
i think tat's all le..
i oso tired le..
later stil need go college collect my booktat i borrowed..

conclusion..
this two days shud b ok ba..
less out the time alone..
when i faced ppl..
i's stil able to maintain my happy mood..
tat's gd sign anyway..
hope the prob can leave me soon..
as i said, time heals..

31st day le..
it's a one full month..
one month i stil cant get used..
wat could i do then?
work is the only way?? haih~

ps. nvm, wat i hope now is u could live happily forever even with or without me..

Saturday, February 27, 2010

KahWai House Party..

ok.. now i'm in kahwai hse..
writing this post..

there is a lot of ppl now..
quite meriah la his hse..
got party ma..
every kind of ppl oso got..

the children..
especially very naughty..
chasding each other inside the house..
if this ever happen in my house..
sure my mum wil scream de..

how to say leh?
here got one xiao mei mei open facebook..
open all the funny stuff for me to laugh..
felt a bit happier la..
abuden u wan me to b moodless facing the innocent child meh?
rite?

she keep on opening new video for me to laugh altho i keep telling her i wan to open restaurant city..
at last..
i did laugh..
thx to songher's xiao qing..

beside, songher and disheng back d..
and here comes yeehoo and shupin..
y cant v ghather together leh?
haih..

nvm la..
gonna watch football later le..
see yea..

ps. but now tat u act cruel.. i have nothing else to say but to act as wat u wished for..

Friday, February 26, 2010

22 hours of fast..

It's incredible..
i can fast for 22 hours!!
unfortunately i cannot put myself longer..
24 hours kan bagus?
it makes up to one full day..

as i said before, my last meal is yest at 1pm..
til today 11am only i took my breakfast..
isnt it 22 hours?

in these 22 hours..
i learnt to not eat..
altho my stomach is screaming..

i look at it as my punishment..

so?
today is holiday..
maulidur rasul..
so i no nid work..
but my senior have to..
they are subjected to their work and therefore could not make themselves free..
kesiannya, this is life of an auditor..
sacrification is indeed a MUST!

another week gone le..
time passed very fast..

this week, my luck is not there..
my will is not there..
n my spirit is not there..

wat consumed me is sadness, emoness, frustration!
mainly because i do not noe ppl's thinking well..

i learnt tat during these period..
true face of ppl wil revealed..
i can easily noe hu is sincerely caring for me..

altho my fren cant do anything wif my condition now..
yet, they tried their best to make me happy..
thx Bell, Annie, Angel, Swee, JiaMin and hu ever la..

one guy even asked me to do the things i like to forget the sadness..
but then, he dont noe, wat caused me this..
i don blamed him..
now i tell him here..
i'm FORCED not to do things tat i liked..
so wat other suggestion can u giv huh?

aiks~
"time heals"..
i keep repeating this sentence to me..
hoping i could jump out from this situation..
anyway, it's juz an obstacle in life..
everyone faced different obstacles in life..

my obstacle is in front of me..
it takes time to overcome the problems..
so no worries my fren..
i wil b fine one day in the future..

on 29th day..
i did nothing but rot at home..
gonna depart to songher's, swee's and kahwai's hse later..

ok..
another song dedication..
the rhythm synchronised wif my feeling..

下雨天 - 南拳妈妈

下雨天了怎么办
我好想你
不敢打给你
我找不到原因
什么失眠的声音
变得好熟悉
沉默的场景
做你的代替
陪我听雨滴

期待让人越来越沉迷
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

期待让人越来越疲惫
谁和我一样
等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会
寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞
一个人擦泪
一个人好累

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

怎样的雨怎样的夜
怎样的我能让你更想念
雨要多大天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

其实没有我你分不清那些
彻别接近还能多一些
别说你会难过
别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

END

ps. before tat, i thought: i wil continue to wait, cont to go after you.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

28th day..

U noe y i now only write blog?
at 11.21pm now?

because i OT today..
i chose to OT..
my senior keep on asking me to go bek..
they say VT(interns) shud not work beyond 8pm..
i, wif a smile, asked her bek: which law actually say so de?
she replied: it's a hidden rule..

i OT because:
first, i haven finished the task given by senior, altho it's only 65 samples..
but my senior din asked me to finish it all by today, i willingly to stay back..
second, my last day in ASTRO le..
next week i wil move to Bank Muamalat..
feel so tak sampai hati to leave ASTRO..
so mai stayed longer lo..
third, is because i can temporary forget the unecessary thinking when i staye in the office, despite the noise created by cleaner's vacumm..
by juz looking at the invoices, searching for document number, date, does the client sign? when sales manager sign? when finance manager sign? does the rate consistent? and so on..
i can forget the unhappy stuff..
moreover, the time passed fast enuf for me..
one glimpse of eye and half an hour passed..
this is wat i wan currently..

tat's y i OT til 10pm only went bek home from ASTRO..
and first thing i came up from ASTRO..
it's a bad news..
i thought my father can drived in and picked me up..
but then the gate is closed..
so i have to walk far far to come out to petrol station only my father can fetch me..
realy not my day..

well, wat can i say more?
i'm half dead..
these little things wil cause no better for me..
i'm oredi in worst situation, wat can bring further harm to me?

but today quite lucky..
i worked in radio group ma..
and then slightly after 8pm i went out from the radio group office to finance office..
and guess hu i saw?
i saw the MY FM's DJ - the one juz finished duty - Royce and his partner(wan wai fan).
they even opened the door for me.
shud i feel honoured ar?

so here i am..
after bathing and writing this post here..
now wat time le?
11.32pm..
to b honest, i stil haven took my dinner..
lunch at 1pm..
10 hours passed le..
surprisingly my stomach is juz mere hungry..
not very very hungry..
so?
don wan take dinner ba..
later wan sleep le..
if not wil become one pig only..

yest nite i whole nite listened to 心太软..
this song reali very nice..
the lyric is meaningful too..
even my heart listened to this song wif 100% concentration..

the lyric represented my heart..
the song represented my body..
when it merged, it makes perfect..


today i listened to music la while working..
and i accidentally listened to another of my favourite song..
then i juz clicked 'repeat' and the song stayed there til i went bek..
this song, is a rock song..
but i duno y..
when i listened to it, i wil feel sad..
i lik the song's rhythm..

hereby dedicate this song to myself..

BaD RomancE -LadY GagA

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want you leathe-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
Your bad romance

I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love, uhh

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
(‘Cause I’m a freak bitch, baby!)
I want it bad
Your bad romance

I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
I’m a freak bitch baby

I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

J'veux ton amour
Et je veux ton revenge
J'veux ton amour
I don't wanna be friends

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

(I don't wanna be friends)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
(Want your bad romance)
Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)

I want your loving
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
(Want your bad romance)
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

END


28th day le..
ppl usually say yi fat yi fat(easy fatt)..
when is my turn to fatt?
haih..

ps. with the will i have now, i learn to never give up..

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

27th day..

yest nite i was talking to myself..
i rmb one terms ni - 心太软..
and this morning, i heard it in radio..
izit a coincidence?

Nothing much to say today..
dull day..
doom day..
gloominess day..

time to get up mr miow!

bek home i did nothing..
NOTHING!

on 26th day, everything changed..
on 27th day, everything changed too..

i dedicate this song to mr miow, hoping he get up soon..


心太软 - 任贤齐

你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强


夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人
喔,算了吧
就这样忘了吧该放就放
再想也没有用
傻傻等待他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来
你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强


夜深了你还不想睡
你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累
明知他不会回来安慰
只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼
你应该不会只想做个好人
喔,算了吧
就这样忘了吧该放就放
再想也没有用
傻傻等待他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来
你总是心太软心太软
独自一个人流泪到天亮
你无怨无悔的爱着那个人
我知道你根本没那么坚强
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强
不是你的就别再勉强
不是你的就别再勉强
不是你的就别再勉强


ps. therefore i stand up again, facing myself wif lights, a light of hopes..

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

I cant juz understand..

today was suppose to b a happy day..
SUPPOSE to b!!
but b4 the day ends..
something tat I DON REALI WAN TO C, I DON REALI WAN TO SEE!!
pierce thru my eye into my brain..
n my stupid brain actually got the msg..

everything was ok til juz now..
everything in ASTRO was good for me..
at least i feel so!

beside, whole day i was actuali thinking of how to make u happy..
WHOLE DAY u noe?
the feeling is not very good..
when u juz wanted to focus on something else..
the mind juz cant concentrate..
or shud i say i concentrate, but the thought juz make it way to my brain..

and wat happen next?
i was juz happily(for god sake i was happy juz now) going off from office..
thinking tat now is off time le..
and i can START SMS!!

wat's next?
no reply..
and i juz saw the god damn message..

is the world trying to make fun of me?
or m i stupid enuf to be tricked?
wat's up now?
better to let ppl destroyed my heart now..
than keep on suffering lik this..

ps. BUT i tell myself, "now kenot doesnt mean future kenot"..

Monday, February 22, 2010

25th day..

these 2 days..
got happy got sad la..
mostly bout happy one..

yest nite went to wangsa to pass library book to one of my fren..
it's oredi overdue for lik 2 weeks?
n i dont get a gd time to go bek to college to return the book due to my work during weekdays..
then had dinner there wif them..
kesian me i nv got a chance to meet my mei¬
T.T

then opportunity cost?
i forgone the chance to meet up wif secondary skul juniors..
one of my fren invited me to his hse but as i nid to go wangsa and pass the book..
i missed the chance..
when is the next time then?
unknown...
@.@

so wat's so special bout today?
back to normal working days la..
it's been usual since i started working..
everyday juz hope tat the time passed faster and i can go bek faster..
and so i could open my restaurant city more..
and increase my $$ and gourmet point..
lol..

getting more closer to senior liao..
and tat means?
works coming in more frequent..
today i worked wif 2 senior inside the radio group's office..
and they indirectly rebut me to do works for them..
nvm la.
as long as i got works to do..
i wil forget those unhappy things trapped inside my mind de..
hehe..

so wat i did today?
i was assigned to radio groups - AMP(Airtime Management Programming..
a company tat managed the astro's radio station..
to put it simple..
a company tat in charge of MY FM..
done lead cash schedule for invoice.
doing lead schedule for PPE..

and i can sense more works incoming tomorrow..
at least it's better than no works to do rite?
^^

the lady hu sit opposite me..
is a receptionist in the office i think.
she keep on getting up phone calles and say 'yes, AMP, come again, one moment please..'
repeating the lines for at least 100 times today..
and tat's wat she said the whole day..
=.=''

oh yea¬
i saw phoebe and my fm's ah bee today in canteen..
seperately..
kesian i din c ah lian tym..
but i can tell u..
he's getting thinner and taller le..
last time i c him oso not tat 'fit' de lo..
haha..

yeah..
25th day le..
i oso duno y i keep on remind myself..

ps. tat moment is speechless, undescribable, sadness, emoness to the max..